who's gonna catch me when i fall =[
today was a very rough day. i'm stressed to my limits. with everything. from school to guys to volleyball to family. nothing seems right anymore. no matter wat i do it doesn't pay off in the end. no matter how hard i work in school, i still feel like a failure. no matter how much i bust my ass in practice, i don't play much anymore. i figured out that no one really knows me. not everyone knows everything i've been through. the ONLY people that do are taylor for sure, molly, and ang. they know me better than i know myself. yea so i dont trust guys watsoever for several reasons. but i love how some guys just keep trying to break down that wall n it's making me want to put it back up instead of taking it down. i always end up opening myself up n getting hurt in the end. i'm sick of letting people walk all over me. i'm not sure how much more i can take until i break. =/
sorry i had to vent. most of you will read this n totally change your opinion of me but that's because you don't know me. ugh i'm done. hopefully happier entries are on the way.