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my computer is being freakin retarded right now.
tonight i went to this amazingly cool cafe to watch my roommate sing. it was open mic night and this is the first time i got to see her...she has a freakin awesome voice. and most of the singers were amazing. sitting in that setting listening to jazzy soulful blues type music made me feel both really relaxed and extremley sad. relaxed because something about that type of singing reminds me of growing up and soothes me. and sad because some of the songs have so much emotion in them it reminds me of what i'm hiding in my heart right now. and that made me realize how crushed i am over this situation...i'm a terrible person but then again so are you...so who's really to blame? no, i take that back...i'm not a terrible person,i just do awful things every once in a while...you though, you're horrible all the time and you love it. quit martyring yourself for martyrs sake.
again...i'm left feeling naive and stupid. and i don't consider myself either one of those so i'm pissed. what makes people so god damn self absorbed? you think you can just take what you want from people just because you're "going through something" and you use it as an excuse to act like an asshole?
i feel frustrated, sad, hungry, and empowered all at the same time.
i fear there is nothing left to say to you that you want to hear...im lame
tonight i went to this amazingly cool cafe to watch my roommate sing. it was open mic night and this is the first time i got to see her...she has a freakin awesome voice. and most of the singers were amazing. sitting in that setting listening to jazzy soulful blues type music made me feel both really relaxed and extremley sad. relaxed because something about that type of singing reminds me of growing up and soothes me. and sad because some of the songs have so much emotion in them it reminds me of what i'm hiding in my heart right now. and that made me realize how crushed i am over this situation...i'm a terrible person but then again so are you...so who's really to blame? no, i take that back...i'm not a terrible person,i just do awful things every once in a while...you though, you're horrible all the time and you love it. quit martyring yourself for martyrs sake.
again...i'm left feeling naive and stupid. and i don't consider myself either one of those so i'm pissed. what makes people so god damn self absorbed? you think you can just take what you want from people just because you're "going through something" and you use it as an excuse to act like an asshole?
i feel frustrated, sad, hungry, and empowered all at the same time.
i fear there is nothing left to say to you that you want to hear...im lame