Go Steelers!!
Well, on the first note, good job to the steelers for their first win of the season! i liked the game, it was interesting and great to watch. I know it's only the 1st game...guess we'll have to see how the rest of the games go. unlike our IUP team. I dunno what is up with that. don't get me started with that. My high school team is doing well too. Won both games so far, good job Berlin. Even though I might know some of those kids on the team but not all.
just thinking today made me realize that i have relied my life too much on guys, on trying to find someone who is right for me. i'm almost 21 here, i feel I have a lifetime to find a guy. But like I am so surrounded by people who have boyfriends or who are engaged, having babies, being happy who have been in relationships for 2 or more years and I feel like I want that too. I have been through 5 relationships all which didn't last cause they all wanted one thing. I don't go wel with that. I am looking for the perfect boyfriend, the one I have been looking for but not really. Like someone who has all the traits that is in my "guy" book. Only God knows this tho, so I have left this up to him to help me in finding the guy to spend my life with. I know I feel more stubborn or jealous on days in where I just want a good relationship like my cousin has with his girlfriend or my friend Rachel has with her boyfriend Ashley or how my friend Mandy has with her newly found husband. I just want this. I've been hurt too much and I don't want to be hurt anymore. This boyfriend now I dunno about him. I love him but not as much as i used to. We're going farther apart and he don't call me anymore. We haven't seen each other since February. It really sucks. This guy I have been hanging out with well I dunno what is up with that right now. Just being friends at the moment is good. but I like him. I know I push into relationships too much and I def need to stop that. I just need to be told the "ok" from God to say this is him, go after him. if he says, no it's not time, i will back off. Just lots of prayers with God cause love is so difficult I realized this.
Anyways, I had a pretty good decent day of relaxation. I went to church with Courtney and marching band ppl. I love marching band ppl. ummm it was pretty packed in church this morning. really happy abou that, mostly of who I saw was from CRU. ummm, after that I ate lunch with court and then I saw Brandon, Jason, Cortney, and Nell. fun times, fun times! I then went back to my room, tried to do some homework and watched the steelers game. i then went to dinner and now i am back here. i came to realize this year of how much i cherish the friendship of my friends in cRU. Never will I find people in this world like them. I can be at a job where everything can be stressful and ready to pull my hair out but I can give one of these guys a phone call and they will be there for me for comfort. I really enjoy that too. There are a few ppl in cru i miss this yr. mostly greg. He lives near me sorta, like 30 minutes i think, but he is a wonderful brother of Christ. I love all the friends I have made thus far at college. i am just gonna dread being a senior cause I am going to have to leave all of these ppl and start a new new life of being an adult. going to work, starting a family, dealing with financial crap, dealing with all sorts of stress. I don't want to leave them tho. That's why i say if ur in college for ur first time, make friends. cause this will be the 4 yrs u will cherish for a lifetime. u will meet ppl u totally love and ones u wish u leave u alone. but the ones u will cherish u will remember for a long time. i went to punxsy for my freshman yr and then i came here to the main campus for my sophomore yr. i am still friends with the majority of the ppl i hung out with there at punxsy. even my old roomie, lydia. me and her are closer than ever. same with my bud boyle and purple and tweak (who doesn't go to iup anymore :(). but yea cherish ur friends cause these will be the best times of ur life.
ok i am going to go and start to finish up some homework that is due tomorrow. have a good week. Oh ya, Go steelers!!
just thinking today made me realize that i have relied my life too much on guys, on trying to find someone who is right for me. i'm almost 21 here, i feel I have a lifetime to find a guy. But like I am so surrounded by people who have boyfriends or who are engaged, having babies, being happy who have been in relationships for 2 or more years and I feel like I want that too. I have been through 5 relationships all which didn't last cause they all wanted one thing. I don't go wel with that. I am looking for the perfect boyfriend, the one I have been looking for but not really. Like someone who has all the traits that is in my "guy" book. Only God knows this tho, so I have left this up to him to help me in finding the guy to spend my life with. I know I feel more stubborn or jealous on days in where I just want a good relationship like my cousin has with his girlfriend or my friend Rachel has with her boyfriend Ashley or how my friend Mandy has with her newly found husband. I just want this. I've been hurt too much and I don't want to be hurt anymore. This boyfriend now I dunno about him. I love him but not as much as i used to. We're going farther apart and he don't call me anymore. We haven't seen each other since February. It really sucks. This guy I have been hanging out with well I dunno what is up with that right now. Just being friends at the moment is good. but I like him. I know I push into relationships too much and I def need to stop that. I just need to be told the "ok" from God to say this is him, go after him. if he says, no it's not time, i will back off. Just lots of prayers with God cause love is so difficult I realized this.
Anyways, I had a pretty good decent day of relaxation. I went to church with Courtney and marching band ppl. I love marching band ppl. ummm it was pretty packed in church this morning. really happy abou that, mostly of who I saw was from CRU. ummm, after that I ate lunch with court and then I saw Brandon, Jason, Cortney, and Nell. fun times, fun times! I then went back to my room, tried to do some homework and watched the steelers game. i then went to dinner and now i am back here. i came to realize this year of how much i cherish the friendship of my friends in cRU. Never will I find people in this world like them. I can be at a job where everything can be stressful and ready to pull my hair out but I can give one of these guys a phone call and they will be there for me for comfort. I really enjoy that too. There are a few ppl in cru i miss this yr. mostly greg. He lives near me sorta, like 30 minutes i think, but he is a wonderful brother of Christ. I love all the friends I have made thus far at college. i am just gonna dread being a senior cause I am going to have to leave all of these ppl and start a new new life of being an adult. going to work, starting a family, dealing with financial crap, dealing with all sorts of stress. I don't want to leave them tho. That's why i say if ur in college for ur first time, make friends. cause this will be the 4 yrs u will cherish for a lifetime. u will meet ppl u totally love and ones u wish u leave u alone. but the ones u will cherish u will remember for a long time. i went to punxsy for my freshman yr and then i came here to the main campus for my sophomore yr. i am still friends with the majority of the ppl i hung out with there at punxsy. even my old roomie, lydia. me and her are closer than ever. same with my bud boyle and purple and tweak (who doesn't go to iup anymore :(). but yea cherish ur friends cause these will be the best times of ur life.
ok i am going to go and start to finish up some homework that is due tomorrow. have a good week. Oh ya, Go steelers!!