Help
Words don't express anything for me. I can talk to very few people of how I honestly feel and still no one listens. They may hear what I am saying but still no one listens. I don't know what to think of the people I care for the most. Do they care for me? Do they like me? Do I annoy them? Or are they just there because they feel bad? Being here was a great experience for me. I thought it was the end of my life, I felt as though nothing could make my life worse. But i found my life here. I found it in the people i have met. The ones who have changed everything for me and for the better. I don't know what I would do without them all. Sometimes i just feel like the tag along that no one wants to be with and other times i feel like i'm with family that i haven't seen in forever. I hope they all know that I am there for them whenever they need me. I hope they know they can tell me anything and it's safe with me. I hope they know that if i could take the world off of their shoulders i would do it in a heartbeat.I know I can't do everything, but all of this just takes time. And I know time doesn't wait for me but I pray they all know how I feel so now all I have to do it watch time fly. Ben, I don't know if you feel the same way for me as I do for you, but if you do, you must care a lot. You have opened up many fun doors in my life in this short time. We may not have been together a lot but everytime i'm with you I seem to feel like the happiest person alive. And i thank you for that, and i thank you for putting up with everything i've givin you.It may not be or have been the best relationship you've been in but I'm hoping it gets better and i'm hoping you give it a chance. I'm here for you anytime you need me and if you don't know it now you can trust me with anything. And i know and hope you're there for me too. No one knows how i feel not even the twins, but i guess it's because i'm afraid to tell how i feel. I understand if some of your feelings you have are for someone else but i'm hoping at least some of your feelings are for me because i care for u.