"I get so tired of being proper and good."

[hollaho]

It's a funny feeling really to watch something you've worked on for weeks finally coming alive and then have to pack it up and put it all away in one evening. Watching everything from my show seperate and come apart was hard. All of the things that took so much time to make and think of were put back where they were before my show was even thought of. I hate to be the dramatic, but it is the department I'm involved in, right? That's the hard thing really about all of this. Everything that we work for leaves us so quickly. The unique experience of being involved in a show, in any form or fashion, is something that teaches us all something I think. That quick bond that you feel with that group of people in only a matter of weeks is something unique on its own.

The truth is, I am so absolutely horrible at change that I don't know why I am still existing in a place like theatre where things will never stop changing. I guess there really isn't a place where change doesn't exist. Truth.

Last night I went to Heather's to see the girls before they went back to their college lives, etc. Having them there was one of the best surprises of the evening, probably one of the best surprises in a while for me. I told Stacey afterwards that it's hard for me to let other people in when I have such wonderful people in my life like them far away from me. I feel like I'd be cheating. Does that sound weird? I wish Grace could have been there.