I am so F-ING FORTUNATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wow...... let me start by saying that fucking leticia molis and amanda walton are the fucking coolest people.... THEY BOUGHT ME A TICKET TO WARPED TOUR AND LEFT IF UNDER MY DOOR!!! i want to pay them back, but i think i will surprise them some other way.... thanks guys, you rock my world. but let me tell you why it really came at the right time, i needed some cheering up last night becausee, well i found myself it what very well could be the worst situation of my life, and i say that because my life has been pretty good so far. i was so worried about how i was gonna pay for school in the fall, and my dad was all "oh don't worry about money, i am gonna help you with school, you don't have to pay... blah blah blah." being the gullible person that i am... i believed him, sort of hard to understand why someone in thier right mind would believe thier very own father.... so i pick a school and sign up and i am getting ready to leave in a month, and he tells my mother to relay some news to me, because he is not man enough to tell me himself... you must understand that my father and i are close and that we have never been in fights or anything of the sort, so i will continue...so she tells me that when i get off the phone she needs to talk to me, i was lik ok?!? so i get off the phone and go in there, and she tells me my father has backed out on me and that he isn't gonna help pay. my parents are divorced and i live with my mom, i am not ashamed to admit that at times we struggle because she has no outside help, just her working for the 2 of us, and if i reaaaallllyyy need help i can just ask my dad, he is remarried and makes a lot of money, but i have always hated just asking for money because it is almost like he makes me feel bad. anyway, HE IS PICKING THE WRONG TIME IN HIS LIFE...and mine!...TO BE SELFISH!!!! i swear to everything, and ya'll can be my witnesses, if he buys a boat, which he has been wanting for a while, this year, i will never speak to him again, how is he going to allow me to go into 9000 DOLLARS in debt in my first year of school. he sucks sooooo much. this situation also sucks because i can't just tell him how i feel cause i don't wanna make our relationship awkward. i can't tell him how i feel cause it will ruin everything, so here i am, this is my outlet, and i definately can't tell my mom how i feel cause she will explode on him and it will just be world war three and i don't want to be the type of person that gets in a fight with their sibling or parent and doesn't talk to them for 30 years untill they are lying on thier deathbed, i don't want that.... so you see, leticia and amanda, you showed up with "my ticket out". just wanted to let you know that i love you all and i am so grateful for you ticket although i am f-ing pissed at my dad. .... and i'm out! ~cullen