Thoughts
I’ve been in the field all week so it has been a little more bearable
than usual but I’m still fucking pissed at myself for putting me
where the get serious responsibilities are just grinding me to
the ground sometimes I just want to give up
the good, responsible, kind,would do anything for any body, me kicks in
and tells me that I now have responsibilities that
I got myself into and now have to live up to them
and I have all this stress on top of having no one to
really bitch to about it at any given time it makes me want to
pack it in (thank goodness for live journals)
fuck car payments, fuck insurance
fuck cell phones, fuck money, fuck friends(i love you guys you all give me strength like the title says there just thoughts),
fuck it
holy shit am I really this angry I need to find a new job(humor)
fuck it I have no emotions at all
stupid bullshit don’t effect me
there’s no such things as love and hate
its all about choices everyone has them everyone makes them
I fucking hate pre adulthood teenage drama
Its such a waste of time ,which I notice moves quicker the older I get
Fuck man if I don’t make moves soon then before I know it tomorrow I’ll be
Waiting to die!
so I go about my normal life with nothing but friends
who if I’m lucky I get to see on the weekends for more
then a couple of hours each but, I understand that every one has a busy
life as well as myself so if they miss me one weekend there’s always the
next but enough with the morbid boring thoughts in my head
its time for me to turn back into chipper cheerio
fucking “nice guy” that I really
am?
than usual but I’m still fucking pissed at myself for putting me
where the get serious responsibilities are just grinding me to
the ground sometimes I just want to give up
the good, responsible, kind,would do anything for any body, me kicks in
and tells me that I now have responsibilities that
I got myself into and now have to live up to them
and I have all this stress on top of having no one to
really bitch to about it at any given time it makes me want to
pack it in (thank goodness for live journals)
fuck car payments, fuck insurance
fuck cell phones, fuck money, fuck friends(i love you guys you all give me strength like the title says there just thoughts),
fuck it
holy shit am I really this angry I need to find a new job(humor)
fuck it I have no emotions at all
stupid bullshit don’t effect me
there’s no such things as love and hate
its all about choices everyone has them everyone makes them
I fucking hate pre adulthood teenage drama
Its such a waste of time ,which I notice moves quicker the older I get
Fuck man if I don’t make moves soon then before I know it tomorrow I’ll be
Waiting to die!
so I go about my normal life with nothing but friends
who if I’m lucky I get to see on the weekends for more
then a couple of hours each but, I understand that every one has a busy
life as well as myself so if they miss me one weekend there’s always the
next but enough with the morbid boring thoughts in my head
its time for me to turn back into chipper cheerio
fucking “nice guy” that I really
am?