today i rode my bicycle to golden apple, with a few comics in mind. ian's been mentioning grendel a lot lately, which made me curious about it again. the last time i read it was two years ago in karam's room. when i got there, finally, i was let down because they didn't have either of what i was looking for, the other being clowes's like a velvet glove cast in iron. i just settled for tomine's 32 stories.
spent the rest of the time wandering around inside with bridget.
but on my way back home, i saw a homeless man. he sat there alone at a bus stop, surrounded by his belongings. there was this longing inside me, wanting to help him. i thought of all the possibilities, but nothing i thought of would do much. how far could any of my small effort really go in the end anyhow? i turned a corner and sat down, pretty much mad at the world for letting things like that happen to people. i ended up just getting him a meal from the close by india sweets & spices. i said hello, handed it to him, and biked off. his entire life fit into a supermarket cart.
i don't know. i think at some point i'll just shoot out into outer space and no one will know what happened. it'll be okay.