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I am feeling so down & depressed right now...ugh!!!
Okay so today was really weird. After school I went to the pizza place with Taylor, Sam, Steph, Lea, & Joanna. Yeah, I'm friends with Taylor & Steph, but I don't really hang with Lea, Joanna & Sam too much. I think Jo & Lea hate me....but everything was cool today & they were really nice. But anyway then we went to get ice cream. We sat in Dairy Queen for over an hour just trying to find a party or some house to go to. They just wanted to drink & smoke & stuff...Im not really into that but I didnt care, because I would still hang with them anyway & it doesnt mean I have to. Tonight was homecoming...theres a dance, but no one goes, & a football game, but it was raining. So finally we decide to go to the football game for a little while. Steph called Hayley to tell her we were leaving & that she should meet us there. SOOOO we get to the football game & were hanging out for awhile but I kind of had that feeling that I wasnt really wanted. Then all of the sudden I cant find ANY of them. It ends up they decided to go to the resevoir & not even TELL me. What great friends I have. I saw Hayley & I felt bad because theyre the ones who called her & told her to come & then they left without even saying hi....So yeah I hung out with her for a little while. Then I just hung out with a lot of random people all night like Sammy, Chelsea, Bauer, Danielle, Will, Dave, Chris, Brandon, etc.
After the game I was gonna go to Chelseas with her & Juliet....but guess what...they freakin left without me too. I didnt care too much about that one because I am so pissed at juliet right now. she acts so sweet and innocent but she is one of the biggest fakes i have ever met. we got into a fight today, like physical lol. we were acting like we were just kidding around but i know we both meant it ha...i have scratches up and down my arms. i was really hungry to the point where i felt like i was gonna pass out & so alex gave me her last cookie & juliet grabs it out of my hand & i asked for it back cuz i told her i really needed to eat something and she like punches me in the arm really hard, and i punched her back and then the next thing i know shes like scratching my arm up.....i mean seriously i was lightheaded and i needed to freakin eat something but she refused to give me my cookie hahaha so she decides to beat me up? ha i dont know man.
but anyway, after i didnt leave with them, i was gonna go to danielles with bauer...but that didnt work out so i went home....home at 10:15 on a friday night, homecoming to be exact.
but wait, THERES MORE!! Okay so I understand that Jim was with his girlfriend tonight so I didnt expect him to like be all over me....but i was thinking that maybe I could at least get a fucking HELLO!!! but no. I swear that he must have hugged like every girl there...everytime I looked at him he was with someone else, not like in a player sort of way, just like a friendly kidding around sort of way. but no, he wont even say hi to me until i said hi to him, and even then it was only halfhearted. i didnt want to say hi to him at all but he was like one foot in front of me & i didnt want to be a bitch.
UGH WHY ME? WHY FUCKIN ME?????????????????????????
Okay so today was really weird. After school I went to the pizza place with Taylor, Sam, Steph, Lea, & Joanna. Yeah, I'm friends with Taylor & Steph, but I don't really hang with Lea, Joanna & Sam too much. I think Jo & Lea hate me....but everything was cool today & they were really nice. But anyway then we went to get ice cream. We sat in Dairy Queen for over an hour just trying to find a party or some house to go to. They just wanted to drink & smoke & stuff...Im not really into that but I didnt care, because I would still hang with them anyway & it doesnt mean I have to. Tonight was homecoming...theres a dance, but no one goes, & a football game, but it was raining. So finally we decide to go to the football game for a little while. Steph called Hayley to tell her we were leaving & that she should meet us there. SOOOO we get to the football game & were hanging out for awhile but I kind of had that feeling that I wasnt really wanted. Then all of the sudden I cant find ANY of them. It ends up they decided to go to the resevoir & not even TELL me. What great friends I have. I saw Hayley & I felt bad because theyre the ones who called her & told her to come & then they left without even saying hi....So yeah I hung out with her for a little while. Then I just hung out with a lot of random people all night like Sammy, Chelsea, Bauer, Danielle, Will, Dave, Chris, Brandon, etc.
After the game I was gonna go to Chelseas with her & Juliet....but guess what...they freakin left without me too. I didnt care too much about that one because I am so pissed at juliet right now. she acts so sweet and innocent but she is one of the biggest fakes i have ever met. we got into a fight today, like physical lol. we were acting like we were just kidding around but i know we both meant it ha...i have scratches up and down my arms. i was really hungry to the point where i felt like i was gonna pass out & so alex gave me her last cookie & juliet grabs it out of my hand & i asked for it back cuz i told her i really needed to eat something and she like punches me in the arm really hard, and i punched her back and then the next thing i know shes like scratching my arm up.....i mean seriously i was lightheaded and i needed to freakin eat something but she refused to give me my cookie hahaha so she decides to beat me up? ha i dont know man.
but anyway, after i didnt leave with them, i was gonna go to danielles with bauer...but that didnt work out so i went home....home at 10:15 on a friday night, homecoming to be exact.
but wait, THERES MORE!! Okay so I understand that Jim was with his girlfriend tonight so I didnt expect him to like be all over me....but i was thinking that maybe I could at least get a fucking HELLO!!! but no. I swear that he must have hugged like every girl there...everytime I looked at him he was with someone else, not like in a player sort of way, just like a friendly kidding around sort of way. but no, he wont even say hi to me until i said hi to him, and even then it was only halfhearted. i didnt want to say hi to him at all but he was like one foot in front of me & i didnt want to be a bitch.
UGH WHY ME? WHY FUCKIN ME?????????????????????????