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I'm getting so upset by the Barkers drama going on right now. It struck me kind of hard before, but I'm in tears now. I just read an article about Travis' supposed myspace retort to Shanna's blog. I also read some comments from readers. I fell in love with their love, and now there are so many stories flying around to trash it all. I don't know which ones if any are true, but the scandal and hatred and polarity that it brings out in people is so fucked up. "She's a bad mother." "He was getting what he deserved for being gone all the time." "She is a gold digger." "They both knew it was going to happen, as soon as they stopped 'playing house.'" It breaks my heart, and is slowly wearing down my love for love. Something has got to give. There must be another example of selfless love out there for me to idolize. There has to be some example that shows people can be madly in love for all time. I have to believe that. I have to believe that there is still a possibility for that kind of emotion to come out of me. If not, I am afraid that a part of me has to grow up, and that becomes another crack in my rose-colored glasses.