Rant
im not making this friends only, because it needs to be said. this was the summer before most of us began senior year. i thought it would be a time of work, and play, spending time with friends before our last year began. but instead, it was full of backstabbing, lies, and drama. all of us sit here and pretend like we like each other like we truly enjoy each others company, but we dont. we used to, but something changed. you sit there and talk about how much you hate someone and how you think theyre this or that but then try and befriend them in person? or you exclude people because theyre different or try to ridicule them because they think differently than you do. and then there are people who i called some of my closest friends who either ignored me this summer or who barely made time to see me when i tried to so hard to see you guys even though i had to work. no one looks out for each other anymore, no one. this summer started off badly, my vacation sucked and i came back to winston looking for my true friends, and i really only found one or two and even them i dont really trust. we all claim we're so close, but if i saw any of you right now i wouldnt even know how you truly felt. if i called any of you at two in the morning because i needed someone, i doubt any of you would come help. what happened to us? the people i knew two years ago, that i loved, trusted,and respected. theyre all some hipster bullshit, two faced, or trying to figure out where they belong. so what im trying to say is, i know i havent been the best friend, and that i get caught up in bullshit too but im trying to make things right with everyone and i dont want a little less than a year from now when we are graduating to think that we arent going to miss anyone in this town. im tired of trying, im tired of calling people and leaving voicemails and never getting called back. i dont want to go into my last year of high school without the people who have been there the years before, but i can, and it looks like i will. so just think about things, because when shit hits the fan, if things dont get straightened out and we arent all a little nicer to each other, then no one is going to be there.