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So, my mother really fucked up and her house was foreclosed on. The news sent me into panic mode for about two days. Moods swinging wildly from panic, to anger, to fear that I'm a terrible person because I can't offer that much help. And what help can I offer, or what help do I want to offer? Because those have two very separate answers.
My sister, the shining light of my family, really is amazing and stepped up to it all. I would be in such worse shape if I didn't have her. She knows so much more than I do in this situation and took control while still asking me to do things to help that I could handle. It felt really nice to be able to do tasks without waiting for news form her. However, I have never seen my sister so angry.
I guess the only news I can report is that there isn't anything we can do. Nothing. My mom waited too long and now the house is gone even if we paid now.
This situation is a black hole and if I get too close, I'll be lost. I'm trying to maintain everything while trying to figure out my feelings. Nothing right now is easy.
Happy birthday to me.
My sister, the shining light of my family, really is amazing and stepped up to it all. I would be in such worse shape if I didn't have her. She knows so much more than I do in this situation and took control while still asking me to do things to help that I could handle. It felt really nice to be able to do tasks without waiting for news form her. However, I have never seen my sister so angry.
I guess the only news I can report is that there isn't anything we can do. Nothing. My mom waited too long and now the house is gone even if we paid now.
This situation is a black hole and if I get too close, I'll be lost. I'm trying to maintain everything while trying to figure out my feelings. Nothing right now is easy.
Happy birthday to me.