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i'm going through one of the lowest lows. I feel like the last year and a half have lead to me feeling worthless and lonely. I am not good enough for anyone or anything. I ask "how can I help," but even helping means I will somehow mess this up. I want to be good, I want to be better but I feel as though I'm only acting what a good person does.
The truth is I'm lonely and I feel hopeless.
I'm trying so hard to lean into it. To picture this like a hurricane that I need to work around. I can't just stand here and expect everything to get better. I do have to work toward helping myself out. I just feel exhausted. I feel like its hard to just keep clawing at the dirt that is shoveled on top of me.
The truth is I'm lonely and I feel hopeless.
I'm trying so hard to lean into it. To picture this like a hurricane that I need to work around. I can't just stand here and expect everything to get better. I do have to work toward helping myself out. I just feel exhausted. I feel like its hard to just keep clawing at the dirt that is shoveled on top of me.