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Dear You,
I can't believe it ended so soon. In my head I had everything planned out, because I wanted to get it right this time. Maybe that's where I went wrong, I jinxed it, jinxed us. When you took my hand it all fell into place, all my fears and anxieties disappeared and everything made so much sense. Nothing ever makes sense to me, but somehow you did, we did.
Then, boom, nothing.
It's over. Over so soon, before we even had a chance to go somewhere. You didn't explain and I didn't ask, and there is still so much I need to know, things I never got the chance to say, and will I ever?
Is it me? The way I look, the way I talk, the way I dress, the way I act, the things I do or do not say? Was there something I couldn't do for you, was there something you saw in me that just slipped away from you, did you make a mistake, was I the mistake, was I your biggest mistake?
I just can't make sense of it all. I thought this was it, I thought you'd be the one to save me but you walked out on me like everyone always does. I'm left to wonder what next, for me? Will I always love something I don't think I'll ever have? Am I forever destined to watch others walk by me, hand in hand, longing to have someone to love me, to want me, to need me, will things always be this way?
You don't know what you've done to me, what you do to me.
I'm sorry I ever let you close enough to break my heart.
But I'll wait for you.
Patiently, silently, I'll wait, because that's all there is left to do.
Love,
Me
I can't believe it ended so soon. In my head I had everything planned out, because I wanted to get it right this time. Maybe that's where I went wrong, I jinxed it, jinxed us. When you took my hand it all fell into place, all my fears and anxieties disappeared and everything made so much sense. Nothing ever makes sense to me, but somehow you did, we did.
Then, boom, nothing.
It's over. Over so soon, before we even had a chance to go somewhere. You didn't explain and I didn't ask, and there is still so much I need to know, things I never got the chance to say, and will I ever?
Is it me? The way I look, the way I talk, the way I dress, the way I act, the things I do or do not say? Was there something I couldn't do for you, was there something you saw in me that just slipped away from you, did you make a mistake, was I the mistake, was I your biggest mistake?
I just can't make sense of it all. I thought this was it, I thought you'd be the one to save me but you walked out on me like everyone always does. I'm left to wonder what next, for me? Will I always love something I don't think I'll ever have? Am I forever destined to watch others walk by me, hand in hand, longing to have someone to love me, to want me, to need me, will things always be this way?
You don't know what you've done to me, what you do to me.
I'm sorry I ever let you close enough to break my heart.
But I'll wait for you.
Patiently, silently, I'll wait, because that's all there is left to do.
Love,
Me