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sry everyone!! i know im annoying my friends about all this shit...
i tried holding it together..well i TRIED, but then i starting crying during lunch. and ran to the bathroom. caitlin came out, she didnt really care, o well she ignores me all the time now, what should i expect? and then my bestestestest friend, samantha ran after me and came into the bathroom. god i love her! ahh idk what id do without her, she came up to me and hugged me with all her might and told me it would b alright...thank u!! then clara came in too, cuz she saw me running towards the bathroom like a cheetah, cuz i didnt want everyone knowing i was crying. i felt like such a baby!! but u just gotta let it out sometimes i guess
then 6th period, towards the end of class, nick came and sat in the desk behind me. i turned around and he had his hand on my back...i didnt know what to say or anything so i just sat there. then he was like "brennan told me u cried alot during lunch...y?" "u know why nick...!" "anything i can do to make everything better??" "yeah" "what?" "u know..." in my mind i just felt like saying **"y cant u like me??? love only me??? why do u have to ruin everything we had, and like allison??? you cant have us both! u cant expect me to think everything is alright! u cant expect me not to start crying right here and now. cuz i love you"
i didnt have the guts to say that...cuz i know id b shot down very quickly
damn my birthday is on wednesday!! its gonna suck! i know i wont have nick anymore. i know allison and nick will b going out by then....*sigh* i cant believe hed want her anyways! damnn
before the spring show started, loren came up and asked what had happened after lunch, cuz she saw many girls coming up to me and hugging me and everything...so i told her the news...then loren was like "u know how one of the people in the *couple* is hotter than the other??" "yeah..?" "u r wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy hotter than nick!! allison doesnt have shit on u woman!! its like comparing a princess to dirt, allison is dirt!" hahaha gotta love her, thanks
i tried holding it together..well i TRIED, but then i starting crying during lunch. and ran to the bathroom. caitlin came out, she didnt really care, o well she ignores me all the time now, what should i expect? and then my bestestestest friend, samantha ran after me and came into the bathroom. god i love her! ahh idk what id do without her, she came up to me and hugged me with all her might and told me it would b alright...thank u!! then clara came in too, cuz she saw me running towards the bathroom like a cheetah, cuz i didnt want everyone knowing i was crying. i felt like such a baby!! but u just gotta let it out sometimes i guess
then 6th period, towards the end of class, nick came and sat in the desk behind me. i turned around and he had his hand on my back...i didnt know what to say or anything so i just sat there. then he was like "brennan told me u cried alot during lunch...y?" "u know why nick...!" "anything i can do to make everything better??" "yeah" "what?" "u know..." in my mind i just felt like saying **"y cant u like me??? love only me??? why do u have to ruin everything we had, and like allison??? you cant have us both! u cant expect me to think everything is alright! u cant expect me not to start crying right here and now. cuz i love you"
i didnt have the guts to say that...cuz i know id b shot down very quickly
damn my birthday is on wednesday!! its gonna suck! i know i wont have nick anymore. i know allison and nick will b going out by then....*sigh* i cant believe hed want her anyways! damnn
before the spring show started, loren came up and asked what had happened after lunch, cuz she saw many girls coming up to me and hugging me and everything...so i told her the news...then loren was like "u know how one of the people in the *couple* is hotter than the other??" "yeah..?" "u r wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy hotter than nick!! allison doesnt have shit on u woman!! its like comparing a princess to dirt, allison is dirt!" hahaha gotta love her, thanks