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should be in bed, but i just spent the past few hours reading back al my lj entries && comments back to a little before i went to ohio to visit and drive down with amanda
and ive been crying this whole time.
especially when i got to my voice posts i left while on the drive down here and stuff.
i also got really angry again about a fued between my mom&sister&i. what a big fucking mess that was.
but.. gooosh. i dont know. i wish it was different. and i wish if it hadnt workd out with her down here, that it would have all ended on good terms and we still good friends so that we could at least visit eachother and talk and stuff, still.
::shrugs:: i dont know. blahhh...
i guess i might start updating more. it feels like i never left. i dont know what means.
but for now, im going to head to bed. im a dumbass for staying up this late. again.
and ive been crying this whole time.
especially when i got to my voice posts i left while on the drive down here and stuff.
i also got really angry again about a fued between my mom&sister&i. what a big fucking mess that was.
but.. gooosh. i dont know. i wish it was different. and i wish if it hadnt workd out with her down here, that it would have all ended on good terms and we still good friends so that we could at least visit eachother and talk and stuff, still.
::shrugs:: i dont know. blahhh...
i guess i might start updating more. it feels like i never left. i dont know what means.
but for now, im going to head to bed. im a dumbass for staying up this late. again.