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[holdenwakefield]

Tonight, the J Sidney Ensemble, my pride and joy, has officially broken up. Right now its too much to get into. All members on good terms except for the two that haven't heard yet. Go to the website. We are trying to be more popular then we ever were by breaking up. It'll be like the Sex Pistols, cept without all those drugs and dying. I guess the whole thing eventually would happen like this. Jeff left, and he was rock 'n roll to quote Joe. Jeff gave us that fucking spark. Him and his lighter fluid went to Albany and Joe came down with his neurological shit. The two arent directly related but the shit that happened two weeks ago was a pretty good sign. Phone calls and the jaws of life were nothing to save it. I dont know what to do now. It feels like something fell off...like my thumbs or something. This is stupid seeing how as we speak 6'6 Osama with his inlarged heart monitered by his stupid Timex is being tossed a couple of icbms to suck on and people in Florida have fucking anthrax but this band was my life. The honorary dinner is on Sunday. We'll be digging up all the shit that needs to be said then. Dont worry, good stuff. And we preserved the friendships, which is good seeing that in a year we'll all be away. Fucking bullshit though, we were supposed to be fucking famous. At least we gave a cd to lars. Now we can stop bitching over how we cant get a good gig, or how we cant get the merchandise finished. No more bitching, here that? No more bitching. I just lost my most important creative outlet. I'm gonna be stuck turning my songs into poems for poetry.com to put in a 50 dollar leather bound piece of shit book. Fucking bullshit.

'paperface...its stupid'-classic mom circa 2000