Not-so-recently, my friend made a comment on happiness. we were considering paying people to do work that we were sian to do (read: interview transcriptions), but we didn't want to pay for it out of our rapidly receding budget. so she suggested paying for it out of our own pockets. and of course, it was met with some vehement objections. who wants ( Read more... )

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Opened my eyes had a dream last night that both my arms were broken ( Read more... )

This post is not directed at anyone, but it is just an observation I've made after some time ( Read more... )

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Today, I realised what a bitter and sad person I am.

Seeing things for how they are doesn't mean I should be bitter about them.. I just need to be truthful to myself.

and I ought to count my blessings.

and I should not bring the sads over from yesterday.

I promise to change for the better.

sometimes my insecurities overwhelm me :( i'm never good enough, never do enough, never try hard enough ( Read more... )

You know what really scares me?

It's how The Bell Jar resonates so clearly with my life in the past.

Re-reading my archives dated back to 2007, the feelings I described remind me of Esther.

Could I have been denying depression all the time during those long, arduous months?

Today morning it was drizzling. As I took out my siren red umbrella, I took a quick look around at the colours of the umbrellas held by the other people around me. They were mostly black. Any other tinges of colour were on the underside of the umbrellas, all hidden under the exposed, shiny silver UV-light reflective sheens. I considered how much ( Read more... )

today i dug up all the old songs from my hard disk and added them back to my iTunes playlist. it was indescribable. the memories were overwhelming... suddenly reminiscent of those times when yy and i would blast emo chinese songs and sing loudly along to them in our hall room during hot school nights. it seems like such a long time ago.. how fast 2 ( Read more... )

I'd swim across lake Michigan
I'd sell my shoes
I'd give my body to be back again
In the rest of the room

To be alone with you
To be alone with you
To be alone with you
To be alone with you

You gave your body to the lonely
They took your clothes
You gave up a wife and a family
You gave your ghost

To be alone with me
To be alone with me
To be alone with me
You ( Read more... )