self inflicted

[holamissc]

try to make those watery eyes just that
and tell myself its just another night
keep it all in
and swallow, swallow hard
the next morning it will all be okay

and its a mystery how it happens
i seriously am just the girl
who studies comedy central religiously
but it all comes too natural
for me now ... i guess

i just know it wasn't this bad before
and i just hope it isn't this bad later on

i dont enjoy this and i'd rather much sleep