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yea I just read some journal entries that i left when i was really mad at my mom....i feel bad now...it's not that i can't stand to be around her....i guess i have just been really irratable with her and i dont know why...i guess i dont feel as close to her as i used to be, i dont feel like she cares...i guess its stupid of me...i dunno. But it's like she knows some of the stuff I wrote or something...She is all upset and I feel really bad, and i had a bad day, and it just sucks. I love my mom a lot, so I don't know why i get so irratable with her. I am just confused or something. yea and at work today I pretty much got called ugly...george told me that the new girl looked like me...then Ryan said that he heard the new girl was really ugly....and I asked him who he heard it from...he heard it from George....so I guess the question of just how ugly i am has finally been answered....kinda sucky...it really hurts...i wish i wasnt so ugly. I am glad that i am going to amandas house because she's cool, and she'll make me laugh and forget about it. I think my mom thinks that I just wanna go so I can bad talk her or something...but that's not it. I just like to be with my friends, I feel like I belong, I am just being a normal teenager...I hope everything gets figured out because I dont want my mom to be upset and i am tired of feeling this way too....