Just watched L&O:SVU's "Abomination" (2003)
...got really emotional, especially when the young man on the stand said it was his fault, that his hating phobe of a father, murdered his lover in front of him and then beaten him in the aftermath.
This was back in 2003, before BD Wong's character, George Huang, was as out as he was, finally, in the Oct 2009 episode "Hardwire".
So when Dr.Huang spoke about homosexuals and homophobies, he spoke referring to them as "they", and that "we (heterosexuals)".
I don't know if that detail was intentional, planned, but even more, I like it. A lot of people are closeted, there's a lot of internalized phobia, that you don't just shake free the first time you come out, you never stop, depending on the situation, you go back in, cause;
That's the thing about being gay in a homophobic, heterosexual-privileging society. It makes you a liar. So even if you never thought you were a bad person for being queer, as a gay person you still wind up living a life where you have to question your honor all the time, and it is this institutionalized and required dishonesty that makes us suspect -- to the military, to (until recently, I believe) the covert services, to adoption agencies, to pastors, to employers, to pretty much anyone who can still say yes or no, who can still withhold approval and sanction
There were two 'coming out' moments that stands out in my head, well, the positive ones, not going to talk about the very negative one now, 1. Telling the girl I had a crush on back in junior high, that I used to have a crush on her, how freeing it was to tell her, and how relieved I felt that she wasn't disgusted.
2. J.K. Rowling telliing the world that Albus Dumbledore, beloved magical character, that works with children, is gay gay gay gay gay, and it's alright. Back in highschool, I briefly considered being a teacher, and automatically ruled it out, because I'm queer. I'm not even lesbian, I'm just, attracted to people who sometimes are men, sometimes are women (and sometimes I can't tell!!! and don't care). I remember one of the crazy rumours about that daycare worker who allegely abused kids (later proved to be bullshit) was that she was bisexual. I love babysitting my relatives, I don't dare to put up myself as a babysitter for kids not related to me.
Because I'm a woman, I can't work late, and my parents expect me to be home before dark, that's really limiting considering that half the year, the sun sets at six pm. Because I'm a fucking queer, I get excluded, and I excluded myself, from a lot of the Women's Sphere too.
It really got to me, in "Abomination", how much of the experience of the closet queer son of the homopho I share, he got to the point where he had no friends left, little social interaction, other than his father, and finally, at last, his lover, his lover who could understand him, his lover that his father then murdered. Like I said, emotional.
This was back in 2003, before BD Wong's character, George Huang, was as out as he was, finally, in the Oct 2009 episode "Hardwire".
So when Dr.Huang spoke about homosexuals and homophobies, he spoke referring to them as "they", and that "we (heterosexuals)".
I don't know if that detail was intentional, planned, but even more, I like it. A lot of people are closeted, there's a lot of internalized phobia, that you don't just shake free the first time you come out, you never stop, depending on the situation, you go back in, cause;
That's the thing about being gay in a homophobic, heterosexual-privileging society. It makes you a liar. So even if you never thought you were a bad person for being queer, as a gay person you still wind up living a life where you have to question your honor all the time, and it is this institutionalized and required dishonesty that makes us suspect -- to the military, to (until recently, I believe) the covert services, to adoption agencies, to pastors, to employers, to pretty much anyone who can still say yes or no, who can still withhold approval and sanction
There were two 'coming out' moments that stands out in my head, well, the positive ones, not going to talk about the very negative one now, 1. Telling the girl I had a crush on back in junior high, that I used to have a crush on her, how freeing it was to tell her, and how relieved I felt that she wasn't disgusted.
2. J.K. Rowling telliing the world that Albus Dumbledore, beloved magical character, that works with children, is gay gay gay gay gay, and it's alright. Back in highschool, I briefly considered being a teacher, and automatically ruled it out, because I'm queer. I'm not even lesbian, I'm just, attracted to people who sometimes are men, sometimes are women (and sometimes I can't tell!!! and don't care). I remember one of the crazy rumours about that daycare worker who allegely abused kids (later proved to be bullshit) was that she was bisexual. I love babysitting my relatives, I don't dare to put up myself as a babysitter for kids not related to me.
Because I'm a woman, I can't work late, and my parents expect me to be home before dark, that's really limiting considering that half the year, the sun sets at six pm. Because I'm a fucking queer, I get excluded, and I excluded myself, from a lot of the Women's Sphere too.
It really got to me, in "Abomination", how much of the experience of the closet queer son of the homopho I share, he got to the point where he had no friends left, little social interaction, other than his father, and finally, at last, his lover, his lover who could understand him, his lover that his father then murdered. Like I said, emotional.