He pushed a few bottles aside and hopped up onto the bar itself. Wouldn't do to stand while getting drunk lest he stumble around and look stupid. Which wasn't to say that he wouldn't anyway once he did get drunk (oh, he could certainly feel the effects now starting), but it at least reduced the chances of, say, falling over or tripping over his own feet. "Now, Lily, she's a fine woman, yeah. I don't know. Sometimes it's the idealism that I like most about Humanity. They've got so much potential that they just squander. I like her, though. Sort of...sort of like a best friend kind of thing, yeah? I mean...she's got a great sense of humour, even if her taste in men isn't. Bright, very bright. And strong. I've always meant to invite her to tea. But, instead, sitting here with you. And alcohol. Better than lying around, staring at the stars and pondering existence. In fact, she's sort of tried to give me a bit of dating advice before."
He laughed in-between sips. "More or less. Ah, I've made a whole mess of things with my friends. ...Heh, you know, a reason they'd love us and cling to us, oh we of longevity, is that it makes them feel safe." Shaking his head, he said, "I think that we make them feel safe, with our...wisdom and age and hope or...something. I don't even know. That we can protect them because we know so much more than they do, and if we care about them, we can protect them for the rest of their lives. But they're not. It's not safe. Never safe. I tell them that, you know, when they want to come along--it's dangerous, liable to get yourself killed. I told Rose that--that girl I said about before, with her dad. I'm not god or anything. Things happen. Bad things happen. People get hurt and killed. But no, they think that's just fine and hop along anyway. I think they feel safe, and I know they're anything but. It'd be a lot better if they didn't even know me. I've been nothing but bad luck for them, and now they're all hurt and offended and angry and--god, I made Sarah Jane cry fighting with Jack, and she just doesn't know me anymore. Change my face, change my personality, and she tried to give me a chance, but no, now I've frightened her off. And she was so happy to show us her ring. She's getting married, and then I made her cry, and I scare her, and she thinks she doesn't know me anymore. Said we were cowards. Said we deserved to be alone. And she's right." No, he wasn't trying to drown himself in his glass, whatever would give that impression, the way he was chugging it down?
He laughed in-between sips. "More or less. Ah, I've made a whole mess of things with my friends. ...Heh, you know, a reason they'd love us and cling to us, oh we of longevity, is that it makes them feel safe." Shaking his head, he said, "I think that we make them feel safe, with our...wisdom and age and hope or...something. I don't even know. That we can protect them because we know so much more than they do, and if we care about them, we can protect them for the rest of their lives. But they're not. It's not safe. Never safe. I tell them that, you know, when they want to come along--it's dangerous, liable to get yourself killed. I told Rose that--that girl I said about before, with her dad. I'm not god or anything. Things happen. Bad things happen. People get hurt and killed. But no, they think that's just fine and hop along anyway. I think they feel safe, and I know they're anything but. It'd be a lot better if they didn't even know me. I've been nothing but bad luck for them, and now they're all hurt and offended and angry and--god, I made Sarah Jane cry fighting with Jack, and she just doesn't know me anymore. Change my face, change my personality, and she tried to give me a chance, but no, now I've frightened her off. And she was so happy to show us her ring. She's getting married, and then I made her cry, and I scare her, and she thinks she doesn't know me anymore. Said we were cowards. Said we deserved to be alone. And she's right." No, he wasn't trying to drown himself in his glass, whatever would give that impression, the way he was chugging it down?
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