Just because it's my fault... ((closed RP, Mello, Near))

[mello_n_choco]

I hate talking to L. I hate it. He's obnoxiously 'I'm so much better than you' and I can't stand him. I wish...I wish...

But, he makes Matt happy.

Matt, the other weight on my mind. Had I pushed him too far? Did I finally, after years of friendship, go too far?

But, it's Matt. He always forgives me.

But, L hates me and...

And, my head is intent on blinding me. God damned silent charms. Why can't I get them down wihtout getting migraines?

Near's in the window seat, studying. "Hey," I say miserably as I fall face down on the bed.