Destination: BYU; Location: Provo, UT
Let's preface this by saying that I get this gut feeling that I'm here for a reason. I just need to find that reason, and I am searching pretty hard.
So left last Thursday, as in I've been here for almost a week. The plane ride was pretty long, though I did meet some pretty cool people along the way, I might have learned a little about my majors and what is available out there in the world. The people I traveled with were fairly wealthy.
So I arrived quite late and ended up staying up until like 6am EST, which is rediculous for my body. It honestly took me several days to get a grasp on the time difference and I do believe that changing my laptop clock eventually did make the difference.
I quickly met the FHE girls, F.Smith 160. I'm not sure of my first impression, but my lasting one is definitely different from what I expected when I came out here. I do find one very attractive.
Interjection, the guys in this apartment are way chill and I def enjoy hanging out here.
I learned a very interesting and useful thing from Dave, it involves personalities. King, Lover, Warrior, Magician. I find myself to be a magician and it definitely explains why I'm not entirely happy at RPI. I need female attention to be pyschologically integrated. Well, its more complicated than that, but that's the jist.
I'm enjoying the vacation aspect of this. I can sleep in and work on things that I enjoy at my own pace. I've gotten a lot of work done on my URP and significant headway made into SAC and the hurry-up mode for lobbying next week. I'm quite excited for the SAC, and the potential it has while I'm the director. I've also been watching a lot of basketball and world baseball classic
I've learned a lot about the mormon religion and culture, and the more i learn the more i like about it. I feel rather stuck, because as long as i'm in a situation of bad influences i won't ever be able to stabilize myself in the way that i like..
For the past few days, i've reflected on whether crows is good for me. I don't really have any friends other than that and i won't have a place to live. aka i'll be alone and probably unhappy. but can i honestly say that all that i've changed this year has been for the better? i'm not quite sure.
I find myself to be more independent and driven than i have ever been.
Also, coming out here has made me realize that i gotta get out of SJ, i like the place enough but i gotta go explore the world and try to find myself. I have a list of things i want to do with my life, but i need to escape. Starting over? i don't know.
As we've all noticed, i only use LJ to get a bunch of stuff off of my mind. I know that there is something out there for me and i just need to find it.
I'm tired. I'm not really looking for comments; I'd prefer not to be attacked if you do leave a comment. I like email. And yes i sent the last one. so send me one.
g'night
So left last Thursday, as in I've been here for almost a week. The plane ride was pretty long, though I did meet some pretty cool people along the way, I might have learned a little about my majors and what is available out there in the world. The people I traveled with were fairly wealthy.
So I arrived quite late and ended up staying up until like 6am EST, which is rediculous for my body. It honestly took me several days to get a grasp on the time difference and I do believe that changing my laptop clock eventually did make the difference.
I quickly met the FHE girls, F.Smith 160. I'm not sure of my first impression, but my lasting one is definitely different from what I expected when I came out here. I do find one very attractive.
Interjection, the guys in this apartment are way chill and I def enjoy hanging out here.
I learned a very interesting and useful thing from Dave, it involves personalities. King, Lover, Warrior, Magician. I find myself to be a magician and it definitely explains why I'm not entirely happy at RPI. I need female attention to be pyschologically integrated. Well, its more complicated than that, but that's the jist.
I'm enjoying the vacation aspect of this. I can sleep in and work on things that I enjoy at my own pace. I've gotten a lot of work done on my URP and significant headway made into SAC and the hurry-up mode for lobbying next week. I'm quite excited for the SAC, and the potential it has while I'm the director. I've also been watching a lot of basketball and world baseball classic
I've learned a lot about the mormon religion and culture, and the more i learn the more i like about it. I feel rather stuck, because as long as i'm in a situation of bad influences i won't ever be able to stabilize myself in the way that i like..
For the past few days, i've reflected on whether crows is good for me. I don't really have any friends other than that and i won't have a place to live. aka i'll be alone and probably unhappy. but can i honestly say that all that i've changed this year has been for the better? i'm not quite sure.
I find myself to be more independent and driven than i have ever been.
Also, coming out here has made me realize that i gotta get out of SJ, i like the place enough but i gotta go explore the world and try to find myself. I have a list of things i want to do with my life, but i need to escape. Starting over? i don't know.
As we've all noticed, i only use LJ to get a bunch of stuff off of my mind. I know that there is something out there for me and i just need to find it.
I'm tired. I'm not really looking for comments; I'd prefer not to be attacked if you do leave a comment. I like email. And yes i sent the last one. so send me one.
g'night