okay so lifes a roller coaster.
okay so lately everything has just been like that long clink clink clink up to the top of the roller coaster and i finally reach the top where you can see th ewhole amusement park and beyond. but like all roller coasters you get that very sharp fast long way down. which is basically just what i have been going through no fun. ugh. anyways. maybe change is just what i need. orange county friday thru monday. thank god <~ i never thought those words would come out of my mouth. anyways click it and check it.
yeah well lets see. just when i think everything is going right in the world something always has to happen. which makes me think that maybe the world just wants me to like have a really shitty year because at the moment the bad is most def. over throwing the good and i hate this feeling. talene seem to thing its because of guys. they are always throwing us out of wack but i just dont know. did i like break a mirror 7 years ago or something? did i accidently kill someone without knowing it? or something why is this such a SHITTY year? like yesterday i got into my house and i was very super super happy like
status and as it got later into the night i went like this
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to finally the same mood im in now
and
put together. *sigh* like seriously i feel like im being punished for trying to have fun with my friends before i move you know? like i just want to have a good time. not be happy then very very sad. like lets just look at all the great emotional bad aspects of 05'! my mother having a severe stroke. me being told that my mother might now make it through the stroke. me being told my mom was paralyzed. my mom leaving me. my mom being moved to another continent where i get to see her twice a year if im lucky for 2 weeks at a time. me being told that if my mom doesnt learn how to speak spell write within the 1st year of her stroke she might never relearn it all. my grandmother dieing. then the not so bad things. yet still kinda hurt. getting cheated on. getting lied to. my father told me he didnt trust me anymore thanks to a certain dick. my sister telling me the same thing. um losing some really good friends. having to move away from everything i know and love. now for the good things. i got to see some poeple i havent seen ina really long time! like my mom gramma cousins uncles aunts friends.. PERU! getting my licence... making some new friends. getting closer to my best friend. um liking someone again... except that is a fucking roller coaster it goes up to the heavens above... then down to the darkest pit hole of th euniverse. ugh.
songs of the moment:
theres no i in team - taking back sunday
the story so far (Acoustic) - new found glory
behind these hazel eyes (acoustic) - kelly clarkson
maybe im amazed -jem
i met a girl like you once - zack hexum
graduation (friends forever) - vitamin c
cute with out the e - taking back sunday
goin crazy -natalie
notice me - nb ridaz
im not okay (i pormise) - my chemical romance
hallelujah- jeff buckley
i want to grow old with you -adam sandler
wake me up when september end - green day
yeah well lets see. just when i think everything is going right in the world something always has to happen. which makes me think that maybe the world just wants me to like have a really shitty year because at the moment the bad is most def. over throwing the good and i hate this feeling. talene seem to thing its because of guys. they are always throwing us out of wack but i just dont know. did i like break a mirror 7 years ago or something? did i accidently kill someone without knowing it? or something why is this such a SHITTY year? like yesterday i got into my house and i was very super super happy like
status and as it got later into the night i went like this
~>
~>
~>
to finally the same mood im in now
and
put together. *sigh* like seriously i feel like im being punished for trying to have fun with my friends before i move you know? like i just want to have a good time. not be happy then very very sad. like lets just look at all the great emotional bad aspects of 05'! my mother having a severe stroke. me being told that my mother might now make it through the stroke. me being told my mom was paralyzed. my mom leaving me. my mom being moved to another continent where i get to see her twice a year if im lucky for 2 weeks at a time. me being told that if my mom doesnt learn how to speak spell write within the 1st year of her stroke she might never relearn it all. my grandmother dieing. then the not so bad things. yet still kinda hurt. getting cheated on. getting lied to. my father told me he didnt trust me anymore thanks to a certain dick. my sister telling me the same thing. um losing some really good friends. having to move away from everything i know and love. now for the good things. i got to see some poeple i havent seen ina really long time! like my mom gramma cousins uncles aunts friends.. PERU! getting my licence... making some new friends. getting closer to my best friend. um liking someone again... except that is a fucking roller coaster it goes up to the heavens above... then down to the darkest pit hole of th euniverse. ugh.
songs of the moment:
theres no i in team - taking back sunday
the story so far (Acoustic) - new found glory
behind these hazel eyes (acoustic) - kelly clarkson
maybe im amazed -jem
i met a girl like you once - zack hexum
graduation (friends forever) - vitamin c
cute with out the e - taking back sunday
goin crazy -natalie
notice me - nb ridaz
im not okay (i pormise) - my chemical romance
hallelujah- jeff buckley
i want to grow old with you -adam sandler
wake me up when september end - green day