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i feel like a complete and utter bitch, im seem to be hurting people and not even knowing it, i mean with the whole RJ situation i knew i was going to hurt him and i felt really shitty sunday when i told him i just wanted to be friends for right now, now someone else says im killing them (their heart) and i really cant take it anymore, itwas just too weird being that RJ is my moms student, dont get me wrong i liked him and ithink that me and joelle were about the only ones who got his humor, but thats besides the point. Steve texted me last night but since i dont have text messaging i couldnt respond or even get his number, so my mom called nextel to see if she could get the number but they said they couldnt give it to her so she got me text messaging whoo hoo!! so they said that would start anywhere from6 to 24 hours so im waiting for that, im so happy cause now i wont have to use other peoples phones (chelsea) (oh yeah by the way thanks for letting me use it all those times) so yeah my phone is off so no one can call me, cause im tired of hearing depressed voices!!!