(no subject)
So
somewhat "talking" of the shittiness that i have been going thru and feeling helped me a little.
i got in bed.
Then:
thought.
i thought about all the little things that have been bothering me...
and the big things i try to ignore in order to keep somewhat sane and nice to some people i surround myself with and the shitty things they do.
and think why do i still want them in my life?
are they that great?
is it the times we have had?
is it the .. something else?
but i dont know.
I feel like i have nobody to talk to anymore like i used to.
i miss it.
i miss many things.
i miss many people.
i miss many times.
but things change.
and hopefully it will get better.
it will...
one day.
i hope.
Thinking of this "stuff" and other random things
some odd.. weird.. and not sad at all
had me up all night.
a few hours of sleep... a energy pill... a monster.. and it being friday night will keep me fueled.
OR so i hope..
And come monday i will have an other "task"/"duty"/"title"
I will be someone who (on top of all the crap i have to do now) will go thru all the accts and make sure that we dont get into any "legal complications" and save the depts ass from getting into shit with the guys in the Glass Rooms.
but at least
more work = more $.... right?
$ sucks.
No matter how much i get its never enough.
More Bills Appear which makes my $ bills disappear.
wack shit yo.
cant we just trade rocks or shells?
But then the distribution of them would be controlled like bills are now.. huh?
and then i would need a big ass wallet to hold those suckers in.
so scratch that.
O and did i tell you i have till the end of march to find an apt.
and my sister wants to move in as well.
[end scence]
p.s.
thanks