Apr 17, 2005 19:28
it was a long road
to what i thought was what i want,
it was my way out
out of all the bad times.
i realized it was better here,
and now that the finish line is in sight
i dont want to step over it
i want to run the other way.
back to where theres not worries
no problems
no enemies
nothing to hate
nothing to dread
i enjoyed it when it was all to late.
the real world is where they say its at
and thats where i dont want to be,
on the other side of the line is the end,
the end of the people i know
places i'd never come back to
and memories i would forget.
i wish i could turn back time
so i knew what to do,
if i only had more time to think
about all the choices i have to make
and not rush into what i'll dread.
im mad at myself
for not doing what i could
or what i should
maybe they would understand...
if it gets to late.
the rest is useless to put out
because there are no words
just self-fustration
of all the things ive fucked up,
maybe someday it'll be a good day....