Grades... WoW
So agian up kinda late just things running through my mind. i know everytime i start to feel like this the hammer is about to drop well... I should probly start to build my shit back up before the hammer drops... So it doesnt leave as much wrekage. I gotta do better in school.
My Ex-GF Melissa seem's to have changed i heard she has done Cocain now. She seems a little more wild. I have a feeling i was a little bit to do on that. Unfortaniately i was that kinda impact on her life. I became the party BF. Showed here to that world. I get this unsettling feeling that her BF now cheats and such. just odd for a 23 year old man to date a 18 year old across the country. Now at college I have seen so much that I almost dont beileve if someone were to tell me that they are faithful. They arnt even faithful to the ones that are here, and everyone that has a Long Distant relashionship... Uhhh ya right. College is for hormones and beer. Maybe its just a unregretable hopeful feeling. Just the pictures he doesnt seem very receptive to her. Never adressing her or anything. Usally she is the one holding him and such. Ehh you never know. Gusse she got a tatoo as well thats cool. Aa bumbble bee of course thats what her name means. But i dont really like the girl she is becomeing but like how do i really know i havent talked to her in like 7 or something months. just from what i hear and see. I hope i wasnt responisble for it. Like showed her that path then she took it. But if she is anything like me then she just has to experiance it. Just sorry college no GF around only 18 man just IDK. Like everything i see around here is just like everyone is unfaithful i have met so many few people who are faithful. And i have yet to meet one that is faithful that has a long distant relashionship. Ehh im just lonely. This is just something for me to focus on cause i want that closeness that i once had. but i think i need to go easy on the chicks for a little. Im just a pussy =P definatly time for this whole jurnol to go private.
Have a presentaion tomorrow gonna suck at it. Dont care stupid class.
Had a meeting with the coach... That went well just talked about the season things like this like that im on the bubble. i can tell. What should i do small school already heard that i had said somthign about not being sure if i was going to come back.
Hmmm should i sleep? yes
My Ex-GF Melissa seem's to have changed i heard she has done Cocain now. She seems a little more wild. I have a feeling i was a little bit to do on that. Unfortaniately i was that kinda impact on her life. I became the party BF. Showed here to that world. I get this unsettling feeling that her BF now cheats and such. just odd for a 23 year old man to date a 18 year old across the country. Now at college I have seen so much that I almost dont beileve if someone were to tell me that they are faithful. They arnt even faithful to the ones that are here, and everyone that has a Long Distant relashionship... Uhhh ya right. College is for hormones and beer. Maybe its just a unregretable hopeful feeling. Just the pictures he doesnt seem very receptive to her. Never adressing her or anything. Usally she is the one holding him and such. Ehh you never know. Gusse she got a tatoo as well thats cool. Aa bumbble bee of course thats what her name means. But i dont really like the girl she is becomeing but like how do i really know i havent talked to her in like 7 or something months. just from what i hear and see. I hope i wasnt responisble for it. Like showed her that path then she took it. But if she is anything like me then she just has to experiance it. Just sorry college no GF around only 18 man just IDK. Like everything i see around here is just like everyone is unfaithful i have met so many few people who are faithful. And i have yet to meet one that is faithful that has a long distant relashionship. Ehh im just lonely. This is just something for me to focus on cause i want that closeness that i once had. but i think i need to go easy on the chicks for a little. Im just a pussy =P definatly time for this whole jurnol to go private.
Have a presentaion tomorrow gonna suck at it. Dont care stupid class.
Had a meeting with the coach... That went well just talked about the season things like this like that im on the bubble. i can tell. What should i do small school already heard that i had said somthign about not being sure if i was going to come back.
Hmmm should i sleep? yes