A strange world
so college is and isn't what I expected. But you know, I didn't really know what to expect. You hear everybody talk about it, but everyone sees it differently. I see it as a way to live it up, meet new people, study, get a degree, and eventually a career. And now I'm having this thing, that is changing that perception. Do I really want to be there, with him. Or is it all some fallacy, that I see what I want. He's a friend, no emotional attachment, but why do I still feel as though he'll get up and leave. And I'll be crushed once again...He'll leave me to find something else, leave to sit in self-pity. I don't want to date him, it's not like that with us. I don't feel bad if he doesn't call, it is a mutual thing we have...I don't depend on him, but he does make me feel kinda good, even if I am only a five. Right now, I feel like I'm rambling on about nothing, and probably confusing everyone. "Passing through Unconscious states...."