if i could take back all those mispent days, every second of anger, i would wash my sins away.....
i figured i'd put a plesant spin on things and update this thing for once instead of the old blog-a-roo. plus i'm fairly certain that i've exceeded my allotment of whiny&complaining posts over there, so i thought that i'd spare the world of myspace for a change. :)
so, to summarize:
i am in a slump. i've been in a terrible mood for the past week. it's one of those points that everyone reaches at some time, where everything goes wrong at once and then you explode.
instances that have aided in this include, but are not limited to:
-SCHOOL. holy f man. turns out college is hard. i finally decided to drop that bloody chem class, which in the big picture, was the right move, but when i think that i just can't wait to graduate and get a real job, i remember that i have three other chem classes to take. now FOUR. plus the pre-req that i need to backtrack and take now. so that's FIVE. i'm glad i wasted my first two years of college taking english classes.
-WORK. at the rate things are going right now, i'm probably gonna get myself fired before i know it. but let me just say that i have done nothing wrong in the past week that my boss has been pretty mad at me for. please, when i work every wednesday night for like 5 months straight, and you know damn well that i have class on wednesday MORNINGS, don't decide that one random week you're gonna end your consistency and for ABSOLUTELY NO REASON schedule me for a wednesday morning. when i should be in class. AND DON'T GET MAD AT ME WHEN I'M 45 MINUTES LATE. she's lucky i didn't go to class that morning, or i wouldn't have come in at all. fat bitch. try acting like the professional you claim to be and, while you're at it, lose the damn 90 pounds you've gained since your marriage. KJ:LKAJSD >:O
-OTHER MISCELLANEOUS BULLSHIT. (for the record, i totally just had to spell check MISCELLANEOUS.)
ANYWHO. it's just all those little things that normally shouldn't bother you, but they do cause you're high strung and easilly irritable from everything else. i totally got into it with jamie today. and by "got into it," i mean i cried like crazy and we got mad and yelled at each other like we used to months ago. amazing. NOT. let me tell you, i was so fucking used to doing that every day for months on end, it was just like a routine that i came to expect. but after i settled down, we haven't fought in months now, and today i realized that is one thing i DO NOT miss. and i never ever wanna go through all that bull shit again. i dunno what got into me today. it wasn't fun though. although i have every reason in the world to be mad for the reasons i was, it's just as much my fault. whatev.
i also don't like the fact that it will not be hot out again for another like 8 months. honestly, this weather is cold to me. and it's not even bad yet. i miss summer already :(
i miss a lot of people. i haven't been doing much of anything lately. i read a lot now. i read two freaking novels in a week, and i'm currently on my third. that's a lot for me :) but i hope this weekend is a good one. andrea's coming home saturday and i'm excited cause i miss my bff. i'm excited to see her and the rest of the girls i haven't seen in forever.
they say good things happen when you least expect them to, and so far in my life that's proven to be true. so, i'm trying really hard to just go with the flow and do what i need to do now and not worry about what i DON'T have right now.
and i think that just about covers it.
GOOD DAY.
so, to summarize:
i am in a slump. i've been in a terrible mood for the past week. it's one of those points that everyone reaches at some time, where everything goes wrong at once and then you explode.
instances that have aided in this include, but are not limited to:
-SCHOOL. holy f man. turns out college is hard. i finally decided to drop that bloody chem class, which in the big picture, was the right move, but when i think that i just can't wait to graduate and get a real job, i remember that i have three other chem classes to take. now FOUR. plus the pre-req that i need to backtrack and take now. so that's FIVE. i'm glad i wasted my first two years of college taking english classes.
-WORK. at the rate things are going right now, i'm probably gonna get myself fired before i know it. but let me just say that i have done nothing wrong in the past week that my boss has been pretty mad at me for. please, when i work every wednesday night for like 5 months straight, and you know damn well that i have class on wednesday MORNINGS, don't decide that one random week you're gonna end your consistency and for ABSOLUTELY NO REASON schedule me for a wednesday morning. when i should be in class. AND DON'T GET MAD AT ME WHEN I'M 45 MINUTES LATE. she's lucky i didn't go to class that morning, or i wouldn't have come in at all. fat bitch. try acting like the professional you claim to be and, while you're at it, lose the damn 90 pounds you've gained since your marriage. KJ:LKAJSD >:O
-OTHER MISCELLANEOUS BULLSHIT. (for the record, i totally just had to spell check MISCELLANEOUS.)
ANYWHO. it's just all those little things that normally shouldn't bother you, but they do cause you're high strung and easilly irritable from everything else. i totally got into it with jamie today. and by "got into it," i mean i cried like crazy and we got mad and yelled at each other like we used to months ago. amazing. NOT. let me tell you, i was so fucking used to doing that every day for months on end, it was just like a routine that i came to expect. but after i settled down, we haven't fought in months now, and today i realized that is one thing i DO NOT miss. and i never ever wanna go through all that bull shit again. i dunno what got into me today. it wasn't fun though. although i have every reason in the world to be mad for the reasons i was, it's just as much my fault. whatev.
i also don't like the fact that it will not be hot out again for another like 8 months. honestly, this weather is cold to me. and it's not even bad yet. i miss summer already :(
i miss a lot of people. i haven't been doing much of anything lately. i read a lot now. i read two freaking novels in a week, and i'm currently on my third. that's a lot for me :) but i hope this weekend is a good one. andrea's coming home saturday and i'm excited cause i miss my bff. i'm excited to see her and the rest of the girls i haven't seen in forever.
they say good things happen when you least expect them to, and so far in my life that's proven to be true. so, i'm trying really hard to just go with the flow and do what i need to do now and not worry about what i DON'T have right now.
and i think that just about covers it.
GOOD DAY.