mixed messages. NEWS <3
So ya. I haven't posted in a while. Why? I have no idea. I just don't feel that what I write on LJ can be free anymore. I just can't say my feelings. Maybe its cuz I know people can read this, even if it's friends or not. I want to say my feelings, but if I do, people get angry. But they want to know how I'm feeling. WTF? I wish people could choose one or the other.
So yes. I just don't think I can be like that anymore. If everyone could make up with each other. Well I have no idea.
I'll say one thing. People have had been having weird dreams lately. For one person, I see that her feelings are still mixed, but as she interprets it, she denies it. She keeps on denying it and getting angry. To me, that anger sounds like she doesn't want it to happen. It's hard that way, isn't it?
To one other, I feel that she is just very insecure about herself and she realizes that maybe her world is more empty than it seems. Empty as in her feelings, her insecurities of loneliness.
And to the other, well, I just think she needs to experience something new, or her mind is subconsciously telling her that she has some sort of craving for adventure. I don't think she knows that, or she has been thinking about it too much. Either or.
On the brighter side of things Kusano and Uchi are coming back. I would show you a post of my CUSTOM NEWS GOODS that I made/have, but Joanna said she'd sew me a NEWS phone holder. I've dropped my cell a few good times after saying I need one. Lets see, I've dropped it more than 5 times, 3 times with the battery popping out.
I wanted to show you food pics too (ahh food is so good!) but I just dont want to upload pics.
SOMEONE MOTIVATE ME.
Ah yeah I have a picture of this baby i call BABY MASSU (who likes how massu did when he was a baby) and theres YUKO (aka girl version of nakajima yuto) aaaannnnnd baby tegoshi who looks like tegoshi, but is a baby...
THEYRE ALL LAO TOO <3
So yes. I just don't think I can be like that anymore. If everyone could make up with each other. Well I have no idea.
I'll say one thing. People have had been having weird dreams lately. For one person, I see that her feelings are still mixed, but as she interprets it, she denies it. She keeps on denying it and getting angry. To me, that anger sounds like she doesn't want it to happen. It's hard that way, isn't it?
To one other, I feel that she is just very insecure about herself and she realizes that maybe her world is more empty than it seems. Empty as in her feelings, her insecurities of loneliness.
And to the other, well, I just think she needs to experience something new, or her mind is subconsciously telling her that she has some sort of craving for adventure. I don't think she knows that, or she has been thinking about it too much. Either or.
On the brighter side of things Kusano and Uchi are coming back. I would show you a post of my CUSTOM NEWS GOODS that I made/have, but Joanna said she'd sew me a NEWS phone holder. I've dropped my cell a few good times after saying I need one. Lets see, I've dropped it more than 5 times, 3 times with the battery popping out.
I wanted to show you food pics too (ahh food is so good!) but I just dont want to upload pics.
SOMEONE MOTIVATE ME.
Ah yeah I have a picture of this baby i call BABY MASSU (who likes how massu did when he was a baby) and theres YUKO (aka girl version of nakajima yuto) aaaannnnnd baby tegoshi who looks like tegoshi, but is a baby...
THEYRE ALL LAO TOO <3