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i really adore these kids.
stuco regionals was really a blast. if you are my cousin shannon, i lost my cowboy pin at ike and i miss it. so, if you could please check the lost&found or whatever, i would appreciate it greatly.
so, i really hate ms. hamlin. really, i truly hate her. you can't teach fashion design if you're 60 years old and stuck in the 80s. she just glues (not sews) a bunch of shit on to everything. it really hurts my soul that she does not understand the concept of simplicity. and when i need help, she won't teach me.
anyway, i didn't get the mipa michigan student journalist award. i'm a little upset because i worked so hard on my portfolio, but i know i did my best. so, what can you do?
i am going on a road trip with my mom and grandma to boston to show them my school. it could really be the death of me but i'm going to try to stay positive. but if there is any wigging out, i'm going to slap a hoe. that's right.
i am a little weary about college and how it is approaching so fast. i am worried about not having enough money to pay for college and question if it is really necessary to move all the way to boston. but it has always been a dream to move to a city and do things, like riding the T and walking to a cute coffee shop or something. but that could be just a fantasy that will just get crushed when i live there for real. i really hope not. i belong in a city.
i get nervous about meeting new people, because i get shy and a little anxious around a lot of new people. i know i will make friends, but i'm scared of not meeting the right crowd or being too reserved or coming off the wrong way. i mean, i won't know anyone which is terrifying but also sort of accelerating.
i am nervous about not being a good enough student and writer. there will be a whole city of talented people and it is hard for me to feel confident in that kind of atmosphere. i doubt myself in every way. a little doubt is a good thing. i just have to be the best i can be and take opportunities to further my career, but not get so overwhelmed in thinking that i could be doing more.
ahh, sorry i'm just being a bit concernicus. i'm sure i will do fine and love college. if not, i can always transfer to a different school. it just seems like a lot of pressure.
love life, friends.