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okay, so why do i always seem to fuck up at auditions? i mean really. i've been doing a lot of thinking and i know for sure that it's not performing in front of Ronn. definately not it. i may get nervous, but nothing near as bad as i did friday. i don't think it was Matt Graber that made me nervous either. complete stranger, thus he doesn't know my auditioning past or how i have fucked up in the past. no. definately not those two. i think it was having to audition in front of my peers, especially the ones i know don't think very highly of me personally. i've overheard snide comments in the past about my "uncouth" ways (namely not apologizing when someone inadvertently caught a glimpse of my breasts as i was bent over tying my shoe) and whom has accused me of stealing TWICE!!!!! damn woman! i bought it myself, it's not your fucking pen so back up off! and don't think any worse of me because i won't give back to you something i bought! damn. i'm sick of the bullshit and politics. oh, and btw, you will NOT be the props bitch for my show even though you're the most experienced in the department. i don't want my props to be last minute "finds" that it has taken you three months to get, and your mummy sarcophagus looks like something i could have made in third grade! if you want to be taken seriously, stop being such a bitch.