The end of this year has snuck up on me
Wow. I haven't written in this journal in quite some time. That's okay because I've never been one to keep up with a journal and I figure none of you really care what I have to say anyway. There are so many things I want to get done right now but just can't. I want to read all the books on my shelf. I want to go back to school. I want to visit my friends that I haven't seen in a year or 2. And even bigger; I want to meet Billy Boyd. I want to be as lucky and successful as some of the people on PL. People going to acting school and traveling here and there. And some being spoiled brats whose mommies pay for them to do that stuff.
Yes, I'm feeling sorry for myself. I'm being a pathetic whiner. But its not fair. I just want to be able to travel. That's all. I'm not asking for fame or fortune. I just want to be able to go where I want when I want. But I can barely even go to the store nowadays. For one, I just started working again and haven't got paid. Two, I have too many bills to spend that money on and a baby! I know that my life is not about me anymore since he was born, but I sure wish that something would come along that's all about me.
Yes, I'm feeling sorry for myself. I'm being a pathetic whiner. But its not fair. I just want to be able to travel. That's all. I'm not asking for fame or fortune. I just want to be able to go where I want when I want. But I can barely even go to the store nowadays. For one, I just started working again and haven't got paid. Two, I have too many bills to spend that money on and a baby! I know that my life is not about me anymore since he was born, but I sure wish that something would come along that's all about me.