::loner::
I'm going to make this short cause I don't think I have that much to say.
Tomorrow I'm going to Tribeca in the city with my design class to do some site research for my project. It's been about two weeks since we've been given this project and I'm only now coming up with sort of a good design for my estuarium (friggin' fishes). Oh, and on Friday i'll be leaving for Phily with Galadriel to visit Philadelphia University and Drexel. I hope I fall in love with Phily U, it looks great.
I'm threatened about how I will do when put into a university. So far, it's been community college for me since I graduated high school. This profession is tough and it's only going to get tougher and I'm not sure if I'll be able to cut it. I mean, i'm slow at what I do, from thinking to drawing to working, i'm not very apt with much. It just seems like i'm moving ahead, slowly mind you, in the wrong direction, I mean, is this what I what to do with my life? Am I good at it? Will I be better? There are also the looming thoughts of "What happened to Psychology or Theater"? I mean, am I really cut out for architecture? Is this my destiny, my calling? I wish I just knew, just really REALLY knew exactly what the fudge i'm supposed do with my life. It's just that, everyone else always does better than me in design and faster too; I feel like i'm still way behind everyone and everything in my life or at least the way my life is supposed to be. I'm just having trouble seeing the future without picturing hanging myself in frustration and bitterness.
I'm hungry. This isn't a short entry at all... peace and lurve, y'all.
Tomorrow I'm going to Tribeca in the city with my design class to do some site research for my project. It's been about two weeks since we've been given this project and I'm only now coming up with sort of a good design for my estuarium (friggin' fishes). Oh, and on Friday i'll be leaving for Phily with Galadriel to visit Philadelphia University and Drexel. I hope I fall in love with Phily U, it looks great.
I'm threatened about how I will do when put into a university. So far, it's been community college for me since I graduated high school. This profession is tough and it's only going to get tougher and I'm not sure if I'll be able to cut it. I mean, i'm slow at what I do, from thinking to drawing to working, i'm not very apt with much. It just seems like i'm moving ahead, slowly mind you, in the wrong direction, I mean, is this what I what to do with my life? Am I good at it? Will I be better? There are also the looming thoughts of "What happened to Psychology or Theater"? I mean, am I really cut out for architecture? Is this my destiny, my calling? I wish I just knew, just really REALLY knew exactly what the fudge i'm supposed do with my life. It's just that, everyone else always does better than me in design and faster too; I feel like i'm still way behind everyone and everything in my life or at least the way my life is supposed to be. I'm just having trouble seeing the future without picturing hanging myself in frustration and bitterness.
I'm hungry. This isn't a short entry at all... peace and lurve, y'all.