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Just now... I was jumping and running around wearing my cape and just enjoying how my cape flows and flaps around and stuff XD I just love my cape ^_^
Im feeling so much better now ^_^. Thanks that you cared about me ^_^. Aikido training just refreshes me... I can always fully concentrate when I'm there... strange huh?
Ah well... I started watching Lain today. Damn that show is weird. But Lain looks cute... and she looks like Hinata from one side (that's why she's cute XD). I don't really get what it's all about right now. But I guess it will become pretty deep/interesting ^_^.
I'll try being funny/happy from now on again. Although it is a bit difficult for me. I will try and laugh now and then...
Wich reminds me... I "adjusted" my no-alcohol vow a while ago. I guess you guys know I don't drink alcohol? Anyway I won't drink it XD. (I've used the excuse that I don't like the taste alot of times, but that not the entire truth).
Anyway, when I was small, I took a sip from my fathers beer. I didn't like it... I had no urge or anything to drink alcohol like the other people about my age. I just didn't drink it. Maybe because I didn't want anything to do with those breezah people (that's how I saw them at the time). Anyway... I went to highschool pretty much alone and stuff. Putting my emotions away deeper and deeper. I was always repressing I guess. At funerals I didn't cry and thing like that... I kinda knew in the back of my head that all that shutting away was bad and it could wreck my someday... but I thought I could handle that (hehe ^^;;;) and just continued living the way I had been for years... empty... Around that time I took another reason for not drinking alcohol. 'cause I was afraid that if I went drunk... all those sealed away emotions would come out like an explosion and I'd loose control... And I was so used to not drinking it and always refusing that I saw no reason to start drinking it.
As I was getting more and more friends and became more open, less shy and stuff. I was also learning how to have fun more and more. I even fell in love... and damn did that shake my feelings... first a gulf of happiness, then a tsunami of sadness, anger and jealousy. (well, it's still shaking my feelings actually...). But that really reminded me... I do have emotions... It's difficult for me to let them out... but I want to give it a try. I still don't drink alcohol, because I think that laughing and happiness should come from within myself... I won't rely on alcohol or anything to get it ^_^.
Well... I dunno if I ever told people about that ^_^;; Maybe bits and pieces to some people. But anyway, that's why I don't drink ^_^. I don't care what you people think about it... Noone can get me to drink alcohol... noone ^_^
Im feeling so much better now ^_^. Thanks that you cared about me ^_^. Aikido training just refreshes me... I can always fully concentrate when I'm there... strange huh?
Ah well... I started watching Lain today. Damn that show is weird. But Lain looks cute... and she looks like Hinata from one side (that's why she's cute XD). I don't really get what it's all about right now. But I guess it will become pretty deep/interesting ^_^.
I'll try being funny/happy from now on again. Although it is a bit difficult for me. I will try and laugh now and then...
Wich reminds me... I "adjusted" my no-alcohol vow a while ago. I guess you guys know I don't drink alcohol? Anyway I won't drink it XD. (I've used the excuse that I don't like the taste alot of times, but that not the entire truth).
Anyway, when I was small, I took a sip from my fathers beer. I didn't like it... I had no urge or anything to drink alcohol like the other people about my age. I just didn't drink it. Maybe because I didn't want anything to do with those breezah people (that's how I saw them at the time). Anyway... I went to highschool pretty much alone and stuff. Putting my emotions away deeper and deeper. I was always repressing I guess. At funerals I didn't cry and thing like that... I kinda knew in the back of my head that all that shutting away was bad and it could wreck my someday... but I thought I could handle that (hehe ^^;;;) and just continued living the way I had been for years... empty... Around that time I took another reason for not drinking alcohol. 'cause I was afraid that if I went drunk... all those sealed away emotions would come out like an explosion and I'd loose control... And I was so used to not drinking it and always refusing that I saw no reason to start drinking it.
As I was getting more and more friends and became more open, less shy and stuff. I was also learning how to have fun more and more. I even fell in love... and damn did that shake my feelings... first a gulf of happiness, then a tsunami of sadness, anger and jealousy. (well, it's still shaking my feelings actually...). But that really reminded me... I do have emotions... It's difficult for me to let them out... but I want to give it a try. I still don't drink alcohol, because I think that laughing and happiness should come from within myself... I won't rely on alcohol or anything to get it ^_^.
Well... I dunno if I ever told people about that ^_^;; Maybe bits and pieces to some people. But anyway, that's why I don't drink ^_^. I don't care what you people think about it... Noone can get me to drink alcohol... noone ^_^