Apr 17, 2008 16:18
I'm not absolutely sure what I'm going to write now. Because I hate mocking around and spreading my bad mood all over the world. (insert dramatical overwhelming melody here)
Maybe it's just me or my not-midlife-crisis. You know ... it's like freaking up about yourself. I could bitchslap myself with anything handy but at the same time I just can't stop. I'm much calmer than the last time when I was running straight into the catastrophe, but that doesn't mean that it's anyhow easier this time. Fuck, haha. Well done, dear.
You know, at the same time it's rather funny alltogether. Because - and I want you to listen carefully now - I don't have the slightest intention to do anything against it. Lol. Believe me, I don't understand it myself. At the same time I just understand too well. I mean, that's what it's all about in the end, right?
I just don't want to give up. Lol, that's it, goddammnit. I feel fine just to hear myself thinking this thought. I - won't - give - up. Lalala.
Must suck, right, but you won't get me this time. You hear me? Hahaha ... I will not stop it. I will not feel bad about it. I'll just enjoy it with all my might, all body and soul.
When I think about us I still have to say ... that ... I'll be the winner in the end. No matter what.
So hey, what about some sunshine now? ;) I hope all of you are ok ... I mean, to be honest, what in the world is there to make us sad? At the second thought there is no problem at all, you see? It's just a matter how you look on the things in your life. And if they're disturbing you, destroying you, try to bring you down ... well, just get another view. I got more than I wanted originally and a lot more than I got last time. And tomorrow will be a great day.
Let us be a blessing. Let us be the children of light.
me/myself/i,
freakshow,
life/universe/everything,
junkie,
pt,
love