I want to lose her out of my mind.........
Edit: heh............ i hate myself for thinkin too much, all i want is a girl, is that askin too much?, just one im not askin for anymore than that XD, heh well yea...... i want a girl that can make me stay up late at night just to talk to her, i want a girl that can make me watch sumthin i totally hate, but i watch the whole thing anyway just b/c she likes it. i want a girl, that makes me feel like "Wow, today is goin to be great". i want a girl that can deal my excessive annoyinness. i want a girl, that wouldnt mind playin video games w/ me XD. i want a girl that can be open to me. i want a girl, that i can just give her a gentle kiss on her and cheek adn say, "I Love You", to make her feel special and to be able to see that beautiful smile, XD, heh im soo sad, im just one of those ppl that always wants to kno wat happens next, like say i finish watchin a deep anime or chinese drama, i always want to kno wat happens after that?, im just one of those ppl who likes to see the underdog winning, and i always want to kno wat happens after all that and how happy his life is...... heh i dunnoXD
Wow uh......... yea..... i find myself, watchin these romantic/mystery chinese tapes, called "Detective Investigation Files" heh, i usually find myself, forwardin all the way too all the nice romantic parts XD, like there is always apart of me that wants the two couples to be all right, and it taught me certain stuff. like how if u find ""the one"", even tho it seems like things are a bit flucked up, u shouldnt let go, b/c ull regret it, and u should try to listen to wat ur heart is sayin, sumtimes its right, b/c only ur heart can tell u who is right for u. heh i dunno i just loved the love story in the whole thing, its just beautiful, like for example, one couple, they were married, but on the day of their marriage, the wife, got sumthin that made her forget everythin, and when she woke up, she didnt kno anythin, but she eventually starts rememberin sum stuff, but he doesnt kno why and how, she is married to her husband, since they seem like they r soo not compatiable, and they eventually get a divorce, and overtime, the husband starts goin out w/ this other girl, and everytime the wife sees them 2gether, she feels like wants to die, like her heart collapses, and how they cant even look each other straight in the eye was awkward, but they both realize eventually how even tho they arent the most compatiable couple, they feel so strongly bout each other, and they love each other soo much, and they eventually com back 2gether, through a incident that consider the wife, bein knocked out by a criminal, and how the husband's cryin and tellin her, how much he loves her no matter wat, even tho if she forgets everythin again, he will stil love her no matter wat happens.......
heh that was the first couple, second one is a bit mroe difficult, well....... it all starts back when the guy and gurl were little kids, and how the lil gurl was like a fat gurl, who got picked on all the time, and nobody would play w/ her, but one time, the gurl got stuck in a lil well, and the only person who helps her, was the guy, and they eventually turn into really good friends, but overtime, they lost contact, and they meet back up when they were adults again, and they work along as cops, but they dont kno that they used to kno each other back when they were kids, but eventually the girl finds out herself....... but yea, the guy later gets a g/f, and gets into a deep relationship, but over that time, the girl starts realizin she has feelins for him, even tho they act like they are brothers and sisters, she still wanted to be w/ him but the only way he tried to tell him was when he was recoverin from gettin poison, and the gurl reveals how that her whole life, since she met the guy when they were sooo little, she wanted to marry him, all along..... and the guy slowly but surely realizes that the only one he truly loves is that gurl, but even tho they kno the love each other, the gurl refused to be 2gether, adn tried to get away, and leave him forever, b/c she didnt want to ruin things between the guy and his g/f's relationship, but the guy eventually has the courage, and shows how much he loves her, but chasin after her in the airport (classic romantic scene), and convinces her to stay w/ him, and the g/f of the guy finally realized how she wasnt menat to be w/ the guy, and leaves...., but yea......... i dunnoo its sooo much more romatnic than i describe since i suck in describin shit, but yea its all in chinese, but yea, its romantic, to suckers like me ^_^, heh yea, i had to let sum of wat i am thinkin out, b/c im fuckin tired of bein all depress for a fluckin girl, and makin up all the shit, when there is nothin between us, ZERO ZIPPO, NADA, NOTHIN!!!!!!, all i want to do now is forget watever my head is thinkin and how it makes me feel....... and move on, heh im tearin up again, heh well thats wat i have been doin durin this entire entry, im sooo weak, i deserve not to get any1, heh, just talkin bout these ppl and how they eventually get back 2gether, and realziin how strong they feel bout each other, just makes me realize how much i suck XD
okkie dok im done
Later
Wow uh......... yea..... i find myself, watchin these romantic/mystery chinese tapes, called "Detective Investigation Files" heh, i usually find myself, forwardin all the way too all the nice romantic parts XD, like there is always apart of me that wants the two couples to be all right, and it taught me certain stuff. like how if u find ""the one"", even tho it seems like things are a bit flucked up, u shouldnt let go, b/c ull regret it, and u should try to listen to wat ur heart is sayin, sumtimes its right, b/c only ur heart can tell u who is right for u. heh i dunno i just loved the love story in the whole thing, its just beautiful, like for example, one couple, they were married, but on the day of their marriage, the wife, got sumthin that made her forget everythin, and when she woke up, she didnt kno anythin, but she eventually starts rememberin sum stuff, but he doesnt kno why and how, she is married to her husband, since they seem like they r soo not compatiable, and they eventually get a divorce, and overtime, the husband starts goin out w/ this other girl, and everytime the wife sees them 2gether, she feels like wants to die, like her heart collapses, and how they cant even look each other straight in the eye was awkward, but they both realize eventually how even tho they arent the most compatiable couple, they feel so strongly bout each other, and they love each other soo much, and they eventually com back 2gether, through a incident that consider the wife, bein knocked out by a criminal, and how the husband's cryin and tellin her, how much he loves her no matter wat, even tho if she forgets everythin again, he will stil love her no matter wat happens.......
heh that was the first couple, second one is a bit mroe difficult, well....... it all starts back when the guy and gurl were little kids, and how the lil gurl was like a fat gurl, who got picked on all the time, and nobody would play w/ her, but one time, the gurl got stuck in a lil well, and the only person who helps her, was the guy, and they eventually turn into really good friends, but overtime, they lost contact, and they meet back up when they were adults again, and they work along as cops, but they dont kno that they used to kno each other back when they were kids, but eventually the girl finds out herself....... but yea, the guy later gets a g/f, and gets into a deep relationship, but over that time, the girl starts realizin she has feelins for him, even tho they act like they are brothers and sisters, she still wanted to be w/ him but the only way he tried to tell him was when he was recoverin from gettin poison, and the gurl reveals how that her whole life, since she met the guy when they were sooo little, she wanted to marry him, all along..... and the guy slowly but surely realizes that the only one he truly loves is that gurl, but even tho they kno the love each other, the gurl refused to be 2gether, adn tried to get away, and leave him forever, b/c she didnt want to ruin things between the guy and his g/f's relationship, but the guy eventually has the courage, and shows how much he loves her, but chasin after her in the airport (classic romantic scene), and convinces her to stay w/ him, and the g/f of the guy finally realized how she wasnt menat to be w/ the guy, and leaves...., but yea......... i dunnoo its sooo much more romatnic than i describe since i suck in describin shit, but yea its all in chinese, but yea, its romantic, to suckers like me ^_^, heh yea, i had to let sum of wat i am thinkin out, b/c im fuckin tired of bein all depress for a fluckin girl, and makin up all the shit, when there is nothin between us, ZERO ZIPPO, NADA, NOTHIN!!!!!!, all i want to do now is forget watever my head is thinkin and how it makes me feel....... and move on, heh im tearin up again, heh well thats wat i have been doin durin this entire entry, im sooo weak, i deserve not to get any1, heh, just talkin bout these ppl and how they eventually get back 2gether, and realziin how strong they feel bout each other, just makes me realize how much i suck XD
okkie dok im done
Later