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[ho_kid_13]

Am i really as bad as everyone makes me out to be? Honestly i thought that i was a pretty good guy. I am sick of hearing from people i dont even talk to that i am possesive. I am sick about hearing how everything is my fault. I apologize for things that i have done. I apologize for things that I have not done to try and keep the peace.When do i get apolagies? I am really down right now. The greatest thing in this world is to love and be loved in return.Hope people can realize that. I felt like i could conquer the world, now i am just conquered. When do people humble themselves and stop fighting and try and fix the problem? I guess i am the only one who really cares. I am sick of hearing people talk about me and then knowing that in there eyes i am just another jerk guy who got what was coming to him. Is that true? I honestly think not. I tried to be as good as i could, and i was. Thats the only thing getting me through right now. But when i am alone (which is a lot lately) with my thoughts i am fighting a losing battle. I miss her so bad.I hope the best for you. I gave all i had. I had issues and tried to get through them. Somethings cannot be done alone. Please dont judge me anymore. There is always 2 sides to a story and most people are too scared to get past the surface. Dont believe what you hear. I deserve to be talked to and cared about too.
I have class tonight from 6:10 to 7:45. Not looking foward to it. Oh the lonely trip to Lansing. Hope everyone is happy.Have a good day.

Heres a little somthing i wrote its called the Median

Now the darkness has receded
My confusion and fear have been consumed
Deepest Recessions of utmost depressions
Delve deeper into the inner most being of all that I’m seeing
Tumbling through darkness that begins to breathe
Tearing through flesh that itches and seethes
Pull back the skin and see what’s beneath
One step closer but always out of reach
Enter the Median