Let me tell you a story...
Let me tell you all a story. Make as many assumptions as you like, this could be completely true, or it could be merely something that came into my mind as I sat here, staring off at my wall as I do every day.
Jack and Suzy were the best of friends. They spent most of their time together, and were immensely and immeasurably happy with sharing the other's company. They told eachother almost everything about themselves, but Jack had a secret. Beneath Jack's friendship with Suzy, he had deeper feelings lying underneath what Suzy only saw as a beautiful and close friendship. Jack and Suzy acted as if much more than friends, holding eachother, making physical contact at what seemed to be every possible moment. During one of their routine conversations, the truth was hurting too much to be kept inside. Jack decided it wise to tell Suzy of his feelings for her, his feelings that could not be described using the word 'friends'. Jack explained this to Suzy, and to his surprise and delight, she reacted better than he had hoped, and shared with him that she felt the same way, although maybe not as strongly. Things went on for a few days, and before he knew it, Jack was in the midst of another painfully uncomfortable conversation with Suzy. Jack was surprised at his friends obliviousness as he attempted to discreetly mention his feelings for her which he had revealed just days earlier. "Tell me exactly how you feel!" exclaimed Suzy to Jack, and soon enough, Jack was retelling once again his feelings to Suzy. "Oh.... Wow" she replied, as a cold shiver ran through Jack's body. Something was wrong. Jack's biggest concern was for his and Suzy's affectionate side of their relationship, for he knew that it would take more than this to destroy their close friendship.
"But I thought you meant it in a close friend way before..." She said. "And I thought you meant differently when you said you shared the feelings I have for you," said Jack. Another shiver passes through Jack's body, and he begins to feel nauseated. "Well it's not my fault if I don't feel the same way..." "I know its not." What had brought Jack such an immense joy for the past weeks seemed to be floating through the air in a sharp wind of confusion, just brushing past his fingertips as he attempted to grasp on to the most valuable feeling he had experienced. His friendship with Suzy was the good in everything. The most wonderful aspects in a friendship combined, mixed together with the affection he had so long desired. Jack picks up the phone and dials Suzy's number, wanting to sort things out, and prove to her that things will be the same. With Suzy on the phone, Jack puts on his shoes and walks outside into the frigid cold night. The breeze stabbed at his skin, bringing him into a state of relaxation, the urge to scream no longer pulsating through his veins. 'If I had known. If I had only known I would not have put it all at risk.' "Maybe what I feel is nothing more than the normal feelings for a close friendship like this," Jack lied to Suzy, and to himself. Who was he kidding? Suzy was much too intelligent to look past such things. After walking through the street in the dark, the cold numbing his body and his mind, Jack promised Suzy that it would soon pass, and to make sure that things stay exactly the same. Every aspect of our friendship should stay the same, no reason to change things, and no reason to think that I feel more than I do. Please don't let it change. And with that, Jack returned to his home, fingers red and stiff. Back into his room, as the feelings of sadness and confusion returned to him in a painful burst, as the heat from the house thawed his motionless hands which were consumed by the pleasurably painful stinging of the frozen streets.
This was a bad idea, but after all... its just a made up story.
Jack and Suzy were the best of friends. They spent most of their time together, and were immensely and immeasurably happy with sharing the other's company. They told eachother almost everything about themselves, but Jack had a secret. Beneath Jack's friendship with Suzy, he had deeper feelings lying underneath what Suzy only saw as a beautiful and close friendship. Jack and Suzy acted as if much more than friends, holding eachother, making physical contact at what seemed to be every possible moment. During one of their routine conversations, the truth was hurting too much to be kept inside. Jack decided it wise to tell Suzy of his feelings for her, his feelings that could not be described using the word 'friends'. Jack explained this to Suzy, and to his surprise and delight, she reacted better than he had hoped, and shared with him that she felt the same way, although maybe not as strongly. Things went on for a few days, and before he knew it, Jack was in the midst of another painfully uncomfortable conversation with Suzy. Jack was surprised at his friends obliviousness as he attempted to discreetly mention his feelings for her which he had revealed just days earlier. "Tell me exactly how you feel!" exclaimed Suzy to Jack, and soon enough, Jack was retelling once again his feelings to Suzy. "Oh.... Wow" she replied, as a cold shiver ran through Jack's body. Something was wrong. Jack's biggest concern was for his and Suzy's affectionate side of their relationship, for he knew that it would take more than this to destroy their close friendship.
"But I thought you meant it in a close friend way before..." She said. "And I thought you meant differently when you said you shared the feelings I have for you," said Jack. Another shiver passes through Jack's body, and he begins to feel nauseated. "Well it's not my fault if I don't feel the same way..." "I know its not." What had brought Jack such an immense joy for the past weeks seemed to be floating through the air in a sharp wind of confusion, just brushing past his fingertips as he attempted to grasp on to the most valuable feeling he had experienced. His friendship with Suzy was the good in everything. The most wonderful aspects in a friendship combined, mixed together with the affection he had so long desired. Jack picks up the phone and dials Suzy's number, wanting to sort things out, and prove to her that things will be the same. With Suzy on the phone, Jack puts on his shoes and walks outside into the frigid cold night. The breeze stabbed at his skin, bringing him into a state of relaxation, the urge to scream no longer pulsating through his veins. 'If I had known. If I had only known I would not have put it all at risk.' "Maybe what I feel is nothing more than the normal feelings for a close friendship like this," Jack lied to Suzy, and to himself. Who was he kidding? Suzy was much too intelligent to look past such things. After walking through the street in the dark, the cold numbing his body and his mind, Jack promised Suzy that it would soon pass, and to make sure that things stay exactly the same. Every aspect of our friendship should stay the same, no reason to change things, and no reason to think that I feel more than I do. Please don't let it change. And with that, Jack returned to his home, fingers red and stiff. Back into his room, as the feelings of sadness and confusion returned to him in a painful burst, as the heat from the house thawed his motionless hands which were consumed by the pleasurably painful stinging of the frozen streets.
This was a bad idea, but after all... its just a made up story.