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what did you do today julian?
i drank tea. all day.
fuck, tea is so good. with honey.
last night i had a flash back into the future of an event which i know i will experience.. but even though this doesnt make sense; i have already experienced it in my future. my future was my past and i was remembering something that didn't happen. but in a way, it did happen.
"flash back to a time in the future which i have not yet existed in" is what i scribbled into my notebook. when i go to sleep it seems as if i'm going crazy.. as i start to slow down and transition into night mode, i hear voices and have what seems to be acid flashbacks.. things become blotchy and i see swirling polkadot patterns.. it's all very confusing but it isn't until afterwards that i realize that the "average person" doesn't typically hear voices saying "whhheeerrreeee arrreee hiiisss eeeaaarrssss?" and whistling and whooshing noises. nor do they see strange blobs of blue and green floating in the air.
yeah, i may be bordering on moderately crazy.. but i'm okay with that. i don't think i come off as being crazy normally though so it's hard to explain. when people ask me what i'm thinking about, i feel stupid because i don't have anything to tell them. it's not my lack of thought, but it's as if my brain is this churning machine trying to filter through all of the nonsensical shit like "flashbacks into the future" and trying to find something that can actually be translated into words that could be understood by someone other than me. i say lots of strange things that make sense to me, but that i can never fully explain.
my parents said that we can take julia on our vacation to mexico. fuck yes.
i drank tea. all day.
fuck, tea is so good. with honey.
last night i had a flash back into the future of an event which i know i will experience.. but even though this doesnt make sense; i have already experienced it in my future. my future was my past and i was remembering something that didn't happen. but in a way, it did happen.
"flash back to a time in the future which i have not yet existed in" is what i scribbled into my notebook. when i go to sleep it seems as if i'm going crazy.. as i start to slow down and transition into night mode, i hear voices and have what seems to be acid flashbacks.. things become blotchy and i see swirling polkadot patterns.. it's all very confusing but it isn't until afterwards that i realize that the "average person" doesn't typically hear voices saying "whhheeerrreeee arrreee hiiisss eeeaaarrssss?" and whistling and whooshing noises. nor do they see strange blobs of blue and green floating in the air.
yeah, i may be bordering on moderately crazy.. but i'm okay with that. i don't think i come off as being crazy normally though so it's hard to explain. when people ask me what i'm thinking about, i feel stupid because i don't have anything to tell them. it's not my lack of thought, but it's as if my brain is this churning machine trying to filter through all of the nonsensical shit like "flashbacks into the future" and trying to find something that can actually be translated into words that could be understood by someone other than me. i say lots of strange things that make sense to me, but that i can never fully explain.
my parents said that we can take julia on our vacation to mexico. fuck yes.