Her.
Your sadness is infectious.
I wish you were as nice to me as I am to you. I try to say such nice, encouraging things, and you reply with a Yeah, or shrug them off. I say how much I want to see you, "Mmm... K."
Its always about how you are feeling.
I hate how whenever you are happy, it makes me sad. I hate how whenever you are sad, it makes me feel just as shitty.
I say something nice, no response. Something which the only response would have to be equally nice, no response.
"I cant wait to see you."
>This is where one says "I can't wait to see you too."
"Oh... Yeah."
I mean, she brings up things about wanting to see me, just us two, making it clear that she enjoys my company, but she says it with no enthusiasm, no excitement.
I hate how she makes me feel like such shit. She is blind to it.
I wish someone would just say to her "Stop looking so hard! Stop searching, because the most caring and love you will get any time soon is right here in front of your face! Don't you fucking see? He cares so much. Just SEE IT! Can't you just SEE THIS?