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So I've been here in Australia for a while now, since August, and it's what... November now? That's like... Almost 3 whole months.
I'm not sure how happy I am here yet, and I know this is pretty much all I've written about lately but it's the big topic right now. I'm running low on funding and might HAVE to go home. We will see what happens.
I've been looking for a job but it has yet to be really fruitful. I have been (slowly) calling around and asking different employers if they are hiring at all. It's very hard because it scares the unholy fuck out of me to be doing it. I don't know why, it just does. One I called though told me to go down and wants me to come in for a "trial" type test to see how well I will do on Saturday. I intend to go but I'm a bit scared. Then again, I always am when I start a new job. I guess I always will be, unless like, I win the lottery and don't have to work, but I'm not getting my hopes up.
I still feel kind of like a prisoner here. I don't know if I've given the whole story so I'll give a short version. I am living here in an apartment building with a friend of mine who is a few years older than me, and her boyfriend. The building has an electronic lock that requires a little plastic swipe key to open. We only have two. One goes to her and one to her boyfriend, which makes sense because they both have jobs. So I can't get back in if I leave. And on top of that, I don't know where ANYTHING is, and the outside world terrifies me. It always has, but even worse here since I'm outside of my "comfort zone".
I kind of want to go home, but at the same time I can neither afford it, nor do I want to screw my friend here over, because they need me for the 3rd of the rent that I pay, if I leave she will probably have to get another job to cover it.
Don't.. Know what I should do.
I'm not sure how happy I am here yet, and I know this is pretty much all I've written about lately but it's the big topic right now. I'm running low on funding and might HAVE to go home. We will see what happens.
I've been looking for a job but it has yet to be really fruitful. I have been (slowly) calling around and asking different employers if they are hiring at all. It's very hard because it scares the unholy fuck out of me to be doing it. I don't know why, it just does. One I called though told me to go down and wants me to come in for a "trial" type test to see how well I will do on Saturday. I intend to go but I'm a bit scared. Then again, I always am when I start a new job. I guess I always will be, unless like, I win the lottery and don't have to work, but I'm not getting my hopes up.
I still feel kind of like a prisoner here. I don't know if I've given the whole story so I'll give a short version. I am living here in an apartment building with a friend of mine who is a few years older than me, and her boyfriend. The building has an electronic lock that requires a little plastic swipe key to open. We only have two. One goes to her and one to her boyfriend, which makes sense because they both have jobs. So I can't get back in if I leave. And on top of that, I don't know where ANYTHING is, and the outside world terrifies me. It always has, but even worse here since I'm outside of my "comfort zone".
I kind of want to go home, but at the same time I can neither afford it, nor do I want to screw my friend here over, because they need me for the 3rd of the rent that I pay, if I leave she will probably have to get another job to cover it.
Don't.. Know what I should do.