Happy-ness
Sooo... yesterday when jamie and i sat down for dinner i totally realized how happy i am right now. my life is great other than school trying its hardest to kick my ass. Jamie and i are wonderful besides stupid arguments: complaining to my mom about it... the most sympathy i got from her was "welcome to the married life". Im not confused about anything. i know where my life is going. everything is great. Jay and i sat down and i just looked at him with the biggest smile... "what? do i have ketchup on my face?"...."I love you." and i started eating again. This is where i want to be. one of my friends said that shes never seen me this happy... i told jamie i dont think that ive been this happy since our "portland days" my junior year in high school. Im back to being myself and it feels so great to say that. Maybe our gerbils have something to do with it too. our little girls have made our fights less intense. we argue then we spend 2 hours playing with them rather than being bitchy all night at eachother. we argue on an everyday basis but its mostly dumb stuff. Except when jamie almost burned my apartment down. Yeah... thats right... the stove was on and he set the plastic lid to the garbage can on the stove. he didnt mean to... he thought it was off... but it definately wasnt. it didnt go up into flames but by the time i noticed... it was smoking and it smelled awful... the top was ruined... i was pissed off as HELL... but in the end i didnt care... just a tad bit of PMS i think.
sometimes i try to imagine my life without him... and i try my hardest... but i cant imagine it being THIS happy ever. sometimes we fight and i wonder why i put up with him sometimes since he can be a BIG JERK but i love him and im happy with him. hes nice and considerate... and even when hes mean (which is usually his way of joking around) we argue and get it over with... or he tries to make it so i pee my pants (which i havnt yet) by blocking my way to the bathroom- last time he got potporrii spray in his mouth! Yes!!
Welll... i have a test in an hour and a half on behav. psych. my rat ralph did AWESOME today and we have one more experiment to go. Opie- toms rat... finally finished exp 3. it was sad because he was on 36 hr deprivation.
Off to hopefully pass this INSANELY hard test
sometimes i try to imagine my life without him... and i try my hardest... but i cant imagine it being THIS happy ever. sometimes we fight and i wonder why i put up with him sometimes since he can be a BIG JERK but i love him and im happy with him. hes nice and considerate... and even when hes mean (which is usually his way of joking around) we argue and get it over with... or he tries to make it so i pee my pants (which i havnt yet) by blocking my way to the bathroom- last time he got potporrii spray in his mouth! Yes!!
Welll... i have a test in an hour and a half on behav. psych. my rat ralph did AWESOME today and we have one more experiment to go. Opie- toms rat... finally finished exp 3. it was sad because he was on 36 hr deprivation.
Off to hopefully pass this INSANELY hard test