up coming family christmas

[hn__sweetz]

I have 2 more hours until i go into work and im bored out of my damn mind. I want them to call me and tell me that they dont need me tonight. that would be AWESOME so i could have a head start on driving home. But i DO need the money. I am so pissed off right now though. I got my final grades and for this semester i have a 3.8... could have been a 4.0 if my behav. psych teacher wouldnt have FUCKED ME OVER. SO FRUSTRATING!!!!!!! oh well its over and that teacher is a douche bag. The Sage Family Christmas Party is xmas eve and i dont care for it at all. My cousin isnt gonna be there, my aunt cathy isnt gonna be there, and i hate my cousins that are coming and my uncle paul and his new wife nita. Nita tries so hard to be apart of the family but in doing that she tries to take over the role as a "Sage Wife". Personally she sucks at being apart of this family. She doesnt fit in and of course my grandmother is going to favor her because Paul is her FAVORITE child. Paul doesnt take care of my grandmother when she is ill, my father does! My grandma never thanks him, never remembers ANYONES birthday besides pauls. I love my gma so much but im so sick of this SHIT. Oh and nita tried to stop a family tradition this year... she wanted to change things up. my mom told me and i flipped out and i said that if it were going to be changed im not coming for christmas. Nita has no right, at all, to think that she can come in my family and fuck with things. I have this really bad feeling im going to start something this year or at least ill end up saying something smart ass towards gma, paul, and nita to make them shut their damn mouths. is it bad that i dont care anymore? i dont think so. with as much shit as those three pull and get away with in the family FUCK them. ugh and pauls kids!! I hate them too! As you grow up you learn more and more about the family and what they do and if any one in the family were to give the family a bad name it would do be paul greg and andy. paul cheated on my aunt carol for YEARS, and she waited for him because she wanted it to work. she was the most amazing woman in the world and he left her for nita (gag). His son greg finally got married after he ruined courtneys' life, cheated on her with tons of strippers... etc etc. Andy tried to commit insurance fraud using my brother as the person to pin it on because andy was broke and needed money. Who does that to family? The three of them have no lives, pauls kids just feed off of his money tit into their early-mid 30's. My other uncles kids are reckless, they run around and have no patience. They are teenagers now and they act like they did when they were 3. I cant stand them. Ha. And Megan said when i saw her last month that i seem different, very grown up and mature. I just wanted to say "well duh i am older and i am in college and i dont run around and jump on people like you do". I dont care to be around my extended family anymore. When my grandmother dies i will only come home to be with MY family. Although i dont want her to pass on, i just dont want to be around the part of the family that drives me crazy.

At least i have something to look forward to. Im having friends over tomorrow to hang out and i cant wait. I miss my real friends back home. And i might be seeing Erin and chris tonight which makes me REALLY happy. Thank GOODNESS