Understanding
I have come to alot of conclusions in the last few days about relationships.
I like David alot, and I realized that if I want to continue any kind of a relationship with him i had to define what a rlationship is.
Alot of us use the word love like it is a spoon. Dipping it into something sweet. I realized that there is 3 types of love. Parentally, Friendly, and Romantic. Alot of people get friendly love confused with romantic love when it is mixed with lust. Lust can be confused with love alot of the time, but if you confuse it and use the word love out of context all you have is a broken heart.
I also have been questioning rather or not I was in love with Adrian or Andrew. I think I wanted acceptance and concern and attention and thought it was love, but then pushed that away.
before I confuse y'all I will tell you that in my eyes, and the way that david and I will work in our relationship, is that you do not expect anything from a relationship or plan to be in it for a long time. The only thing you should hope for is tomorrow. Hope and want means you have to work for your wish, expectance means you think it will be there when it comes. And I am not looking for the word love to be used in a romantic way. I am looking for acceptance. I am looking for concern. I am looking for respect. i am looking for affection. i am looking for groundation.
Love is not something I expect or even hope for. It is something natural that happens when you are in a relationship. You wont know when it happens or how it will just be there naturally, and it is not important to vocalize, whats is important is to show it.
Ok so thats enough on that subject for now... one thing I wanted to do I leave you a soundtrack of my life. Its a weird thing I have seen people do, but I am gonna leave u my soundtrack.
1. One Million Tears - Lu'cas Porter & Heather Richie
2. Somewhere Out There - Phillip Glasser & Betsy Cathcart
3. Heaven - DJ Sammy & Yanou
4. Bravedancing - Rachel Sage
5. Untouchable Face - Ani DiFranco
6. Drama Summer - Starting Line
7. Thunder And Roses - Pam Tillis
8. True - Ryan Cabrera
9. Youth Decay - Sleater-Kinney
10. This Is My Time - Raven Symone
11. Have A Little Faith In Me - Mandy Moore
12. Emotions - Pam Tillis
13. Pretty When I'm Drunk - Bloodhound Gang
14. Maps - Yeah Yeah Yeahs
15. The Resurection - Matraca Berg
16. Get Along With You - Kelis
17. Last Train Home - Lost Prophets
18. Miss Celies Blues - Tata Vega
19. Baby Its You - Jojo
20. Fast car - Tracy Chapman
21. Homeward Looking Angel - Pam Tillis
ok there it iis... if you know me you know the selection.
oh and since the oscars come out tomorrow... here are my predictions for my favorite 7 awards.
BEST PICTURE
Fahrenheit 9/11
Finding Neverland
Hotel Rwanda
Million Dollar Baby
Ray
BEST LEADING ACTOR
Don Cheadle - Hotel Rwanda
Johnny Depp - Finding Neverland
Jim Caveziel - The Passion Of the Christ
Jamie Foxx - Ray
Adam Sandler - Spanglish
BEST LEADING ACTRESS
Anette Bening - Being Julia
Catalina Sandino Moreno - Maria Full Of Grace
Emmy Rossum - The Phantom Of The Opera
Hilary Swank - Million Dollar Baby
Zhang Ziyi - House Of Flying Daggers
BEST SUPPORTING ACTOR
Thomas Haden Church - Sideways
Peter O'Toole - Troy
Clive Owen - Closer
Ben Stiller - Dodgeball
Owen Wilson - The Life Aquatic
BEST SUPPORTING ACTRESS
Cate Blanchette - The Aviator
Julie Christie - Finding Neverland
Laura Linney - Kinsey
Sophie Okonedo - Hotel Rwanda
Natalie Portman - Closer
DIRECTOR
Clint Eastwood - Million Dollar Baby
Marc Foster - Finding Neverland
Taylor Hackford - Ray
Alexander Payne - Sideways
Martin Scorsese - The Aviator
BEST ORIGINAL SONG
Believe - The Polar Express
Accidentally in Love - Shrek 2
Learn To Be Lonely - Phantom of the Opera
Million Voices - Hotel Rwanda
Old Habits Die Hard - Alfie
THERE YOU GO!
I will ttyl.
~Lu'cas~
I like David alot, and I realized that if I want to continue any kind of a relationship with him i had to define what a rlationship is.
Alot of us use the word love like it is a spoon. Dipping it into something sweet. I realized that there is 3 types of love. Parentally, Friendly, and Romantic. Alot of people get friendly love confused with romantic love when it is mixed with lust. Lust can be confused with love alot of the time, but if you confuse it and use the word love out of context all you have is a broken heart.
I also have been questioning rather or not I was in love with Adrian or Andrew. I think I wanted acceptance and concern and attention and thought it was love, but then pushed that away.
before I confuse y'all I will tell you that in my eyes, and the way that david and I will work in our relationship, is that you do not expect anything from a relationship or plan to be in it for a long time. The only thing you should hope for is tomorrow. Hope and want means you have to work for your wish, expectance means you think it will be there when it comes. And I am not looking for the word love to be used in a romantic way. I am looking for acceptance. I am looking for concern. I am looking for respect. i am looking for affection. i am looking for groundation.
Love is not something I expect or even hope for. It is something natural that happens when you are in a relationship. You wont know when it happens or how it will just be there naturally, and it is not important to vocalize, whats is important is to show it.
Ok so thats enough on that subject for now... one thing I wanted to do I leave you a soundtrack of my life. Its a weird thing I have seen people do, but I am gonna leave u my soundtrack.
1. One Million Tears - Lu'cas Porter & Heather Richie
2. Somewhere Out There - Phillip Glasser & Betsy Cathcart
3. Heaven - DJ Sammy & Yanou
4. Bravedancing - Rachel Sage
5. Untouchable Face - Ani DiFranco
6. Drama Summer - Starting Line
7. Thunder And Roses - Pam Tillis
8. True - Ryan Cabrera
9. Youth Decay - Sleater-Kinney
10. This Is My Time - Raven Symone
11. Have A Little Faith In Me - Mandy Moore
12. Emotions - Pam Tillis
13. Pretty When I'm Drunk - Bloodhound Gang
14. Maps - Yeah Yeah Yeahs
15. The Resurection - Matraca Berg
16. Get Along With You - Kelis
17. Last Train Home - Lost Prophets
18. Miss Celies Blues - Tata Vega
19. Baby Its You - Jojo
20. Fast car - Tracy Chapman
21. Homeward Looking Angel - Pam Tillis
ok there it iis... if you know me you know the selection.
oh and since the oscars come out tomorrow... here are my predictions for my favorite 7 awards.
BEST PICTURE
Fahrenheit 9/11
Finding Neverland
Hotel Rwanda
Million Dollar Baby
Ray
BEST LEADING ACTOR
Don Cheadle - Hotel Rwanda
Johnny Depp - Finding Neverland
Jim Caveziel - The Passion Of the Christ
Jamie Foxx - Ray
Adam Sandler - Spanglish
BEST LEADING ACTRESS
Anette Bening - Being Julia
Catalina Sandino Moreno - Maria Full Of Grace
Emmy Rossum - The Phantom Of The Opera
Hilary Swank - Million Dollar Baby
Zhang Ziyi - House Of Flying Daggers
BEST SUPPORTING ACTOR
Thomas Haden Church - Sideways
Peter O'Toole - Troy
Clive Owen - Closer
Ben Stiller - Dodgeball
Owen Wilson - The Life Aquatic
BEST SUPPORTING ACTRESS
Cate Blanchette - The Aviator
Julie Christie - Finding Neverland
Laura Linney - Kinsey
Sophie Okonedo - Hotel Rwanda
Natalie Portman - Closer
DIRECTOR
Clint Eastwood - Million Dollar Baby
Marc Foster - Finding Neverland
Taylor Hackford - Ray
Alexander Payne - Sideways
Martin Scorsese - The Aviator
BEST ORIGINAL SONG
Believe - The Polar Express
Accidentally in Love - Shrek 2
Learn To Be Lonely - Phantom of the Opera
Million Voices - Hotel Rwanda
Old Habits Die Hard - Alfie
THERE YOU GO!
I will ttyl.
~Lu'cas~