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I feel like deleting myself from the internet. Hell, I feel like deleting myself period sometimes, but that's another story. Just get rid of it all - MySpace, Facebook, this journal here, any forums I ever posted on, my screen names, my e-mail addresses... all of it. I know I wouldn't be able to get rid of all of it but... I'm thinking I might leave many of them dormant. I suppose it does have a lot to do with how I feel in general. There really is nothing here for me anymore. And by "here" I mean the world. I have no passions, no aspirations... my connections to people and my emotions dirft in and out of existence it seems.
Which you know, I'm tired of getting hurt by people. Or rather, letting people hurt me. It is only because I still leave myself open for it that people can get to me. Why should I care? Why shouldn't I just go "fuck 'em all"? People absolutely deserve 100% of everything they get. Sure, there are some individuals who don't do much to deserve it, but they are guilty by association. They are people and thus, I don't like them. Or more accurately, they irritate me. The great deal of the lot doesn't care about each other, so why should I be any different? Right now I feel like every murder, rape, assault, and whatever else brings harm to people is justified. I hope there is a god and I hope he is pissed off. I want great anger and furious vengeance, let's bring on the Biblical stuff. Just wipe this little insignificant ant farm out of existence. Don't wait, because soon we'll get to Mars... and then who knows where... and just spread our disease further through the universe. We are a plague. We... fuckers have to be associated with me.
"I'd like to share a revelation that I've had during my time here. It came to me when I tried to classify your species and I realized that you're not actually mammals. Every mammal on this planet instinctively develops a natural equilibrium with the surrounding environment but you humans do not. You move to an area and you multiply and multiply until every natural resource is consumed and the only way you can survive is to spread to another area. There is another organism on this planet that follows the same pattern. Do you know what it is? A virus. Human beings are a disease, a cancer of this planet. You're a plague."
Fuck compassion. Bring on the suffering and let the only end not be some oneness with the universe, but rather the end of existence. Fuck everything I used to believe in, used to stand for.
Don't think of me as a nice guy anymore. Don't think of me as a person anymore. Dissociate yourself from anything that ever had to do with me and you will be far better off, trust me.
Which you know, I'm tired of getting hurt by people. Or rather, letting people hurt me. It is only because I still leave myself open for it that people can get to me. Why should I care? Why shouldn't I just go "fuck 'em all"? People absolutely deserve 100% of everything they get. Sure, there are some individuals who don't do much to deserve it, but they are guilty by association. They are people and thus, I don't like them. Or more accurately, they irritate me. The great deal of the lot doesn't care about each other, so why should I be any different? Right now I feel like every murder, rape, assault, and whatever else brings harm to people is justified. I hope there is a god and I hope he is pissed off. I want great anger and furious vengeance, let's bring on the Biblical stuff. Just wipe this little insignificant ant farm out of existence. Don't wait, because soon we'll get to Mars... and then who knows where... and just spread our disease further through the universe. We are a plague. We... fuckers have to be associated with me.
"I'd like to share a revelation that I've had during my time here. It came to me when I tried to classify your species and I realized that you're not actually mammals. Every mammal on this planet instinctively develops a natural equilibrium with the surrounding environment but you humans do not. You move to an area and you multiply and multiply until every natural resource is consumed and the only way you can survive is to spread to another area. There is another organism on this planet that follows the same pattern. Do you know what it is? A virus. Human beings are a disease, a cancer of this planet. You're a plague."
Fuck compassion. Bring on the suffering and let the only end not be some oneness with the universe, but rather the end of existence. Fuck everything I used to believe in, used to stand for.
Don't think of me as a nice guy anymore. Don't think of me as a person anymore. Dissociate yourself from anything that ever had to do with me and you will be far better off, trust me.