It's just so beautiful when the boy smiles
So yea... here i am once again, torn into pieces. wont deny it, cant pretend, i just thought that i was strong, lol my litlle spin on that song. Any way, I had to work from 5pm to 4am last night. I was freakishly not too mad, but then again when i was walking to moms i was really pissed and fed up. I did work 7 to 3 am, but then she knew i was really pissed off bc i almost quit 2 days ago bc of the sched.any who... tonight is my last night! yaya!
I havent done cardio in like a week, i am so mad at myself, but i have been working so much and running around... it might even out, right? ha, I hope.
well i know tomorrow is going to consist of going through clothes to see what i will take, what i will keep here, and what i will give to the red cross for this horrible happening in New Orleans. It's so sad, I want to go down there and help them. I feel so helpless when things like this happen.
Stephen planned on leaving to Cali in January, and i think he really wants too, but his dad is really pushing the idea of staying down here until next school year, and i think that is fine.
not really for me but for everyone else it is, truly. I am just afraid we are going to fall apart. Like, as soon as i leave we are just not going to be interested in eachother.
What if he falls out of love with me bc he never sees me?
What if i fall out of love with him?
I dont think i could, but GOD! it happens all the time to a lot fo people in the same situation.
Ever watch real world? there ya go.
I hope we stay together for a very very very very long time.
I ugh, guess whatever happens, its for the best and god knows what he is doing, and he has our lives planned out, maybe on different paths.
Heck, maybe we should just break up so we dont have to through all this pain... but then again breaking up would be even more pain... only at that time, not as time goes by.
OMG I JUST GO SOME GREAT NEWS!!!!
MY CREDITS TRANSFERED>>>>> ALLL OF THEM!!
that cuts off like 20,000 or so bucks.
YES
YES
YES!!!!!!
that is so great.
*sigh of relief*
But the thing with Stephen is tearing me up. It is all i think about i zone out and everyone ask me what wrong and what not, but i guess the good thing is i know i absolutley love him bc he is all i think about.
He is maybe planning on sched classes to where he has mon and fri off and he can come see me like 2 or three times a month. i would love that, and i think that would be fine for the next few years, but he is so sweet and he said no, he wants to see me every single day.
god, i love him. and i feel like i am taking him away from everybody, geeze.
We will stay in love right?
can u tell i am typing the exact things that are pouring out of my brain?
To many racing thoughts... haha sorry guys.
I got so many things to do.
oh yea, and i will be having some get together before i leave i promise.
I plan to go out to dinner and go to stephens and hang out and eat stuff... lol
See ya, I gotta go pottie.
I havent done cardio in like a week, i am so mad at myself, but i have been working so much and running around... it might even out, right? ha, I hope.
well i know tomorrow is going to consist of going through clothes to see what i will take, what i will keep here, and what i will give to the red cross for this horrible happening in New Orleans. It's so sad, I want to go down there and help them. I feel so helpless when things like this happen.
Stephen planned on leaving to Cali in January, and i think he really wants too, but his dad is really pushing the idea of staying down here until next school year, and i think that is fine.
not really for me but for everyone else it is, truly. I am just afraid we are going to fall apart. Like, as soon as i leave we are just not going to be interested in eachother.
What if he falls out of love with me bc he never sees me?
What if i fall out of love with him?
I dont think i could, but GOD! it happens all the time to a lot fo people in the same situation.
Ever watch real world? there ya go.
I hope we stay together for a very very very very long time.
I ugh, guess whatever happens, its for the best and god knows what he is doing, and he has our lives planned out, maybe on different paths.
Heck, maybe we should just break up so we dont have to through all this pain... but then again breaking up would be even more pain... only at that time, not as time goes by.
OMG I JUST GO SOME GREAT NEWS!!!!
MY CREDITS TRANSFERED>>>>> ALLL OF THEM!!
that cuts off like 20,000 or so bucks.
YES
YES
YES!!!!!!
that is so great.
*sigh of relief*
But the thing with Stephen is tearing me up. It is all i think about i zone out and everyone ask me what wrong and what not, but i guess the good thing is i know i absolutley love him bc he is all i think about.
He is maybe planning on sched classes to where he has mon and fri off and he can come see me like 2 or three times a month. i would love that, and i think that would be fine for the next few years, but he is so sweet and he said no, he wants to see me every single day.
god, i love him. and i feel like i am taking him away from everybody, geeze.
We will stay in love right?
can u tell i am typing the exact things that are pouring out of my brain?
To many racing thoughts... haha sorry guys.
I got so many things to do.
oh yea, and i will be having some get together before i leave i promise.
I plan to go out to dinner and go to stephens and hang out and eat stuff... lol
See ya, I gotta go pottie.