Bittersweet Christmas
This Christmas is going to be a bittersweet one. It's sweet because, well, it's Christmas! and I love it and I always will. It doesn't matter how many bad things happen, I'll always love it. December is my favorite time/month of the year and I'll explain why...
December 17th (my birthday), December 24th (Christmas Eve), December 31st (New Years Eve)
Noticed how they're all exactly one week from each other?
And it's going to be sad because my dad it's not going to be with us. Just typing makes a gulp in my throat. But I don't want not to have Christmas. Last night my mom said she wasn't going to put any decorations including a tree!!!! I almost cried.
Yesterday I uploaded a Nutcracker CD to my computer and I listened to it all day. I love it. And now I'm listening James Galway's Christmas carols. Also, last night we ate our first ham bread which is a typical bread we eat around here during Christmas.
I understand my mom and sister's apathy, but I don't think it's going to do us any good if we ignore it. I guess I'll just celebrate by myself. I'll upload this songs to my ipod and listen to them hidden in my room or while I'm working out in the gym.
Unrelated note: My mom and sarah took the cars and I only got one cigarette left. So not amused.
December 17th (my birthday), December 24th (Christmas Eve), December 31st (New Years Eve)
Noticed how they're all exactly one week from each other?
And it's going to be sad because my dad it's not going to be with us. Just typing makes a gulp in my throat. But I don't want not to have Christmas. Last night my mom said she wasn't going to put any decorations including a tree!!!! I almost cried.
Yesterday I uploaded a Nutcracker CD to my computer and I listened to it all day. I love it. And now I'm listening James Galway's Christmas carols. Also, last night we ate our first ham bread which is a typical bread we eat around here during Christmas.
I understand my mom and sister's apathy, but I don't think it's going to do us any good if we ignore it. I guess I'll just celebrate by myself. I'll upload this songs to my ipod and listen to them hidden in my room or while I'm working out in the gym.
Unrelated note: My mom and sarah took the cars and I only got one cigarette left. So not amused.